You have a lot on your plate for sure, that sounds very stressful and like sone relief would be welcomed. I don’t know about you, but I find the shame cycle of drinking was VERY stressful and so debilitating for my mental health. Once I was able to be sober for a bit, a lot of the stress of life’s challenges felt easier to handle. I was more rested, clear headed and just felt better. Sobriety is the gift you can give yourself to help you feel better and more at peace with your self.
I know it is hard when we keep relapsing over and over and can’t string many days together…I spent a long time on that hamster wheel. The key for me was NEVER STOP TRYING…fall down, get back up, repeat til it sticks.
You deserve some relief in your life, you deserve health and peace…sobriety can help offer that to you. 
You may find some inspiration in this thread…I hope so…
And welcome!! Now you have all of us in your corner as well.