I went to treatment and did 45 days! I was doing so well. I got out and moved into. A sober living house. Well things didn’t. Go as planned. I have a 2 year old whom I share 50/50 with his father. He has 5 years sober. Well going. To treatment I didn’t know I would not be getting him back right away. I understand why his dad is being. Hard on me. But the sober living house is unhealthy and after 2 days out I drank again. The obsession returned and now I’m on day one. The obsession is full fledged. But today I do start a new job and I HAVE to start at day one. I cannot pick up a drink today. I have done nothing but listen to speakers tapes on YouTube and read the BB over and. Over.
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@Hpoire it’s so hard this battle. And I can imagine how you feeling right now. But, you’re here trying again do the well things you know are good for you. And this is conscious. You’re connecting again with yourself. Day one… start together 