You rock,Good job
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I love Stranger Things
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Day 17ā¦Got my carpet pulled out today. I need to replace the subflooring then they are com ing to install the new carpet. Working on getting this place ready to rent 2 rooms. I need to stay focused more than ever to get this project done and that means no drinking, wasted days, hangover weekends. Gotta stay FOCUSED!!!
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Day 19ā¦Feeling SUPER weak tonight really wanted to just go get plastered and drink my face off. I just finished a workout and it kinda passed. I also ate a bunch of food and donāt even feel like going out now. I feel like such a LAME retard not going out thou. Itās like I wanna go have fun but itās just not the same without getting drunk. Stay home I guess.
Day 19ā¦UPDATEā¦
Went out with my friend from out of town. I drove and dropped her off then found parking. Walking to the bar I put my headphones in and listened to Rihanna singing on Wild Thoughts. Immediately my mind started thinking of how good it would feel to hear it buzzed. I shook it off and told myself no I canāt I drove and I have to drive back. My mind kept making excuses for me telling me I could just quit for tonight and let loose a little since Iāve gone 19 days why not I deserve it. I can just get an uber home and get the car tomorrow. Or just have a few drinks and still be ok to drive. Crazy what your mind will do sometimes to rationalize it. I sat down at the bar and the bartender ask if I wanted to see the beer list. I just told her no Iāll have a water with lime. She seemed surprised and ask if I wanted food. I ordered a pretzel and beer cheese that was actually really good then paid and left. After that I kinda just decided to stick to my plan and only go with the water. At the end of the night I got an uber for my friend and I back to the car and drove home. On the way back we got funneled into a DUI checkpoint and the officer ask if I had anything to drink tonight. I was proud to say nope not a drop and be completely honest. He checked my eyes with the finger test and said ok great have a safe night. Felt so good to know with absolute certainty that I wasnāt gonna get a DUI and I just might have if I had decided to break my resolve and risk it just this once like I have many other times. So glad to stay strong and prove it to myself that even when Iām weak I can stay sober if I just stick to my plan.
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Day 20ā¦ This sucksā¦
Youāre doing great, congrats on Day 20. Btw you arenāt lame for not wanting to go out & get trashed. Itās lame going out & getting trashed. Now that you realise itās no fun clubbing without drinking, itās time to find other ways to have fun. This is all part of remaining sober. I wish you continued success, you got this. Peace
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Day 21ā¦ Went to see a movie last night and distracted myself from drinking. The girl I went with is someone I know from church and said there are these connect groups where they all meet up on the weekends after church or other days and have potlucks or just go to a bar and talk some drink just water and others have maybe one beer but donāt get drunk. Iād like to try that to just be able to socialize and have a little fun without drinking.
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Same here, but time for a change and redefine. Fun. Find another experience to enjoy, new interests!
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Right there at Day 4 and itās football Sunday my triggers will be high today. I like to buy peligrino water itās a glass bottle and carbonated. Sounds stupid but it helps.
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Day 22ā¦I like doing the Sunday brunch and drinking bottomless mimosas on Sundays. Feeling the urge pretty strong. Iām having bad thoughts of just saying fuck it and reseting. I feel like I canāt have fun or be myself unless I drink. Iām like in this state of dial tone blah ness and nothing is exciting anymore. How do I have fun again without alcohol???
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Try to focus on what youāre gaining by not drinking (clear head, no hangovers, more energy, better health, no guilt/shame) rather than what youāre losing. Sometimes when I think of it that way, the benefits of not drinking are much greater than my perceived losses.
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Itās normal to have these feelings and most if not everyone feels the same way, initially. It takes practice and time to learn how to have fun sober again, but itās doable - be patient with yourself while you figure it out.
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Totally agree! There are some super cool people at A.A. meetings who are real. 5 months for me sober in a week. My life is changing because of sobriety and working a program. So grateful. It can be painful, but so worth it!
What about getting a group of girls together for a paint night? They are creatively fun, hangover free and inexpensive compared to a night out drinking.