i dont know if i have the strength, mentally or physically, to do this. its hard for me to want to get sober for myself, my self esteem is at an all time low and i dont know how to make it better. i honestly hate myself more than i ever knew was possible. i am completely alone, and i never do well with isolation and loneliness. im having a really hard time. the drugs are the only comfort i have.
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Hey man.
This is a great place to get some perspective, as a bunch of addicts, we’ve all been there.
Your worth isn’t a denotation of those around you. It’s okay to be lonely. I believe that you’re already part way there in knowing that it’s an issue. It’s a journey to Sobriety, and it’s never an easy one. One of the beautiful things about it however, is coming from such degrading lows to a place of peace.
The usual rules follow: meditate, join a group, get support wherever you can (here is a good place). However, what I’d suggest for you right now is just do something tonight that YOU love and enjoy. Watch a show, read something, do a hobby, play a game, anything that usually brings you joy regardless of intoxication. It’s time to bring back even a little of the you that you like.
Something I heard about sobriety is that it is largely an issue of self-love. What do you like to do? What’s even one thing you fancy about yourself? It’s important to be grateful for what you have, and not focusing on what you’re surrendering to your current circumstance.
We’re all here for you. You’re the man. Keep pushing even if it only moves a little. You’ll get there eventually, we know it.
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I had a lot of the same issues when I was first deciding to get sober the low self-esteem and a lot of self hate and feelings of I just can’t do it but I made a decision that I was going to give sobriety a real shot I went to in patient rehab for 28 days I had to cut all ties with anyone who I used with or got drugs from so that was everyone I knew so I was very lonely too I had to earn my girlfriend and kids back because they heard my lied before how I was going to get sober this time I got really involved with AA and went to meetings 4times a week got a sponsor and I started making sober friends in the fellowship so my point is getting sober is a lot of work but it’s totally worth it I earned my family back Im no longer lonely because I made a support system of sober people so please don’t give up you can do this just take it one day at a time I promise ur life will get better I’m rooting for you don’t give up trying to get sober
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