Welcome to the community Brianna
A huge step getting to day 1 ( i know that first day was the absolute hardest). You have not lost your previous sober time. Take the relapse as a learning moment and hopefully will know signs of the addict voice creeping in (in time to stop it from gaining momentum). We are here for you - all fellow addicts working on the same goal. You are not alone.
I do find that either journaling in your own thread or joining us on the daily check in thread helps to stay connected and grounded. Checking in daily to maintain focus #61
Great to have you here with us Brianna!