I stopped smoking weed on 9/29. I’ve been smoking since I was 15, I have autism and I genuinely thought it was helping.
In fact, it was the complete opposite. I have developed no internal dialogue, no motivation to do anything and no interest in doing literally anything at all. Video games, shows, anything fun brings me no joy and excitement.
After being sober for 8 days now, things are slowly starting to get better. I can smell and feel the fresh air on my face, it felt like how I did when I was a child. Playing video games is becoming enjoyable-and had been my substitute for when I get cravings.
I get urges every single night around 7PM and it’s really, really difficult to get out of my head. I’m doing my best to stay strong, and this journey is far from over, but I’ve never felt more in touch with my emotions, thought processes and the people in my life. It’s for the better, and I know that.
I don’t know what I’m expecting to get out of this, but it feels good to get it off my chest. Thank you for reading, if you have gotten this far into my post-I hope you are all doing well, and I’m proud of every single one of you.
Congrats on your days sober and renewed awareness! Keep your appreciation for awareness in the front of your mind when cravings set it. That’s what I do since I stopped drinking but for me it’s appreciation for feeling good physically. No hangovers!
Thank you JayneB, I’m proud of you.
Thank you so much, Looking4Support. I appreciate your kind words and encouragement. It means a lot to me
Thanks for sharing. I am glad you are feeling better. Those automatic urges are like an itch you can’t wait to scratch. Is there someway you could change your routine so you are busy or at least doing something different in that danger time?
I definitely think I could switch something up, I am currently unemployed so most of the time I am not doing much. I appreciate the directional advice, it really helped me think a little differently about things I could do. Whether it be downloading a new game to try, or extreme cleaning my home. Thank you Misokatsu.
I remember absolutely gritting my teeth every single day at the start of my sobriety…gritting my teeth and doing anything i could think of to just not drink…one thing that really helped me was the realisation i had to be my own best friend throughout…treat yourself how youd treat a friend who is really struggling…no negative self talk but find anything and everything that comforts you and do those things as much as you can, also its vital to keep reaching out to us fellow addicts…a very wise person on here once said the opposite of addiction is connection and its so true, we all need each other
That is absolutely beautiful. I love the part about being your own best friend, i don’t have really any friends, I’m way too hard on myself and I definitely don’t treat myself the way I’d treat a friend. I sincerely appreciate your responses, they’ve helped me a lot.
Start by doing yourself a list of what you enjoy or brings you comfort and when u start craving or struggling pick something off the list and do it
Hello!
I am so happy that you courageously chose sobriety for yourself.
I am also autistic and amongst othet substances I am also trying to cut weed out of my life, I am on day 12 currenty so we definitely can do this!
I wish you the very best!