Since I have been in recovery, and appearing to be “normal” again. I find myself always taking the “higher road”. I have never been argumentative, but now it seems I actually have some footing in situations, but I still never correct anyone. I know this is dangerous territory for me because when I drank, I at times liked being very brazen and open with people. I still don’t have a desire to drink, but, I have relapsed many times with no desire to drink. I have a hard time finding a nice way to say things to people so I choose to say nothing. I find solutions to problems by making myself uncomfortable everytime and “biting the bullet” as they say. Typically a few days pass and it’s fine. I’m grateful for the recovery community, because otherwise I’d overreact to these situations. All my relapses have started with me being fed up with something or someone. I really go from 0 to 100 when I’m sober, and not being grateful. When I’m being grateful for my sobriety/recovery, I can usually shoulder a little embarrassment about my sensitivity. I am confident I will learn how to “toe the line” and express myself without being offensive. Or at the very least not obsess over every thing I disagree with. I’m happy to be self-aware today. And clear headed, I hope this helps someone.
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