What I got to do, where I need to get is up on the mountain side, this will be a steep climb. Don’t fall back into my old ways but I sure will miss those dope days. Had my fun, fuck you mom and dad I do what I want, could care less so shut the fuck up. You don’t even know what your saying, I stay up all night still praying. You wouldn’t even comprehend, will never figure it out. Your just a puzzle piece, see the bigger picture. But my name is Carlos and I am an addict but I am done, I’ve fucking had it. Been dealing with this for far to long, hear the misery in this song. I will open your eyes, make you understand it what it’s like to be a fucking addict, please stick a needle in your arm, wouldn’t have to look in the carpet for a shard. Every noise that you hear you think it’s the FEDS, meth sure fucks up our heads, but damn this shit is fun, It’s an adrenaline rush not knowing what could happen. But when there is fun, there will soon be pain. The pain I feel makes me feel alive, knowing I am human and I will survive. I dug a hole so deep about to reach earths core yes my life is at stake, better learn from my mistakes. I gamble my life every single day, wasting my life letting the time keep slipping away so let the pendulum sway. I made my mistakes and without a doubt I would do anything just to get the fuck out. Why does this seem like I’m stuck on repeat, I want to take out the disk, brush the dirt off and admit defeat. I surrender for meth has power over me, just leave me alone and please just let me be. I am chained to the ground and your mighty grip keeps me bound. I have had enough, please set me free, I will escape and pick every lock, don’t feel pity I accept what I got. I got nothing to show other than the boots on my feet and some dirty socks. But I walk with pride each step that I take, reflect and Look back at my past mistakes. I will accept things just as they are and look how I’ve come so far. I might be young but I got an old soul walking with a cane. Arthritis in my joints walking with a limp go further each time but please don’t bother me, better not waste my time. I am done playing these little games, the dope here has for sure changed. I could shoot up a gram but still go to bed at night, this shit fucks up my eyesight. Makes me nothing but skin and bones. People look at me all the damn time, wonder what they are thinking about. Do they see me as a human that has a fucking habit? I guess I do dress and act like a addict. I want people to know who I am. I stick out like a sore thumb, you can spot me a mile away but I am proud to be here today. I do not regret anything, there is no apology and if I hurt you well that’s to damn bad. Karma is a bitch one day it will bite, chew you up only to spit you out. Taste like trash there is no dessert, wipe your plate clean for that was your last meal hope I get to hear you squeal. You laughed at my pain and never helped me up. But what you put in you will put out. Treat people with respect, I got my dignity shouting it from the rooftops. All these evil forces at play, they do their best to temp me in every way. it could be money, women, glory or fame, want to light up the torch and hit the bubble and just forget about my troubles. Throw away my life, lay me to waste, chemicals is the only thing that I taste. Robs me blind like a fucking thieve in the night. It will take everything that you got. It doesn’t care whether your rich or poor, it will creep right under your door, creep through your walls, seep out from your floors. It is a plague and there is no cure. Let this sickness infest and let the fever rage. The apocalypse is upon us, the end is near and it’s stronger when it smells your fear. I am sitting here contemplating just thinking to myself what am I doing, is this the way I wanted to turn out. Now look at me, addicted to meth, doing what I want I know you don’t want to hear the rest. Just sit down lend and open ear just don’t come too close but do stay near. I don’t want to be alone so please save my number on your phone, I will call you when I can just don’t miss me to much. When I’m gone just know I will forever stay strong. I wont give up, or raise the white flag. I will keep fighting till my last days, please forgive me for all that I’ve done, I was fucking high and was on one. I know there is no excuse for my actions, I admit all my faults and know I was wrong. Please here how I feel, listen to this song
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Hello! I see a rapper, all gold chains and baggy pants, cupping his crotch in his hands every couple of minutes as his spits out these lyrics!
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