I’m getting pretty tired of step one.
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Step 1 can be a challenge. Admitting I was powerless over alcohol was hard and at times confusing. I stuck it out though and that was the game changer. I did what was suggested. 90 meetings in 90 days. I discovered that if I put in the work I received positive results. I’m not special. Just someone that found a power greater than alcohol through AA meetings and consistently working a program every day. 
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Welcome RunnerG.
Some days I got to do step one every day. As in surrendering my will every morning.
The sooner I learned I was powerless over people, places, and things, my recovery really started to make sense to me.
I know I’m 
powerless over alcohol. I’ve never ever in my whole life had just one. Not once. No point in try now.
This is a great sober community. Read around. Learn what you can. Keep an open mind and join in when you’re comfortable.
Nobody wants to realize we don’t have control over anything in our lives. Just how we react to life is the only thing we can control. If we are sober.
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Hi there! Welcome to this great community!!
I love what @Peaceofmind and @Dazercat said 
I knew i was addict from a young age but yet i struggled to admit that i couldnt control it. I spent 22 years trying to figure out how I can use drugs and drink like “normal” people, but that never was the case. 1 was too many and 1000 was truly never enough for me. The things I did to get high were horrendous 
As soon as I admitted Step 1 and my powerless over drugs and alcohol… i no longer had to fight it or try to control it. I got a huge sense of relief to know that this is a disease. That i have an obsession of the mind and an allergy of the body. That i wasnt a bad person but that I am just unwell. Finding acceptance in this fact, helped tremendously.
And to get me to this point of powerlessness, I actually wrote down all the ways drinking/using impacted my life and how it also affected relationships, finances/job, my physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual health. Seeing it on paper solidified my powerlessness for sure.
And like @Dazercat said… some days, Step 1 is a daily thing. Addmiting to ourselves that we can not have 1 of anything. Bcuz if we do, we release that addiction all over again.
I hope u continue to check in and stick around. This is such a great forum! Full of support Glad ur here!
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…but you’re still here. And that’s pretty great. Rooting for you, my friend.
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I’d rather be sober and weary of facing the truth of step one every day, than drunk and wishing I had accepted step one. Recently relapsed, and wishing I hadn’t. Keep after it!
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Welcome to the community friend. I am glad you have found us and are here with us. I am not a huge fan of name calling (even if it is towards oneself). You are not stupid. You are stuck in the addiction cycle.
No shame in starting on step one. It sometimes takes time for our minds and hearts to merge into same thinking. Letting go of our control over our thinking and accepting that we indeed have a problem is not an easy step. Keep putting in the work. Keep showing up for yourself. This community is beautiful - a safe space to meet and engage with members dealing with the same journey. Hope you read around and soak in some of the great advice on these threads.
Hope to see you around 
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