Hi pals! I’m a little over 9 months sober which is so crazy every time I think about it. There is no doubt in my mind that without Gods intervention into my life, I would not be sober today. I asked him to take my obsession for alcohol and he did. I have not obsessed over a drink sense.
I am in no way cured tho. I never will be. I am one drink away from hell. One elbow bend away from that life I left behind.
That is where the word that some people missunderstand comes in. “Powerless”. There was a time that my ego told me I was not powerless over anything in life. That I could control my drinking if I tried. That I could quit if I tried hard enough. Now I understand that I am an alcoholic. There is no such thing as controlled drinking for an alcoholic. I’m not special or unique. Just an alcoholic.
So by definition of the word, I am “powerless” over alcohol. But ONLY IF I DRINK IT!! I have a choice to or not to drink it. I chose not to. I accept that I never can. I’m cool with that. I’m cool that I’m Powerless because that means that I do not have to drink again:)