I understand that. But you have to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. If nothing changes, then nothing changes. Connection is the opposite of addiction.
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Congrats on a week of sobriety. I’ve always said the first weekend is hard, but the second one is the hardest. In the first week you still have those shitty feelings that drinking brings as motivation to quit. By the second weekend your body is mostly recovered from that and you’re starting to feel better. So it’s so tempting to think that you can control it now because you’re feeling better and you’ve got several days of sobriety behind you. Just understand that’s a lie that your addicted brain is telling you. Just a heads up on that.
Also be patient with the process. It could be a while before you really start feeling like yourself again. I had about 4.5 months of sobriety earlier in the year and I was just starting to feel that “spark” of the person I was coming alive in me. After a few weeks you’ll feel worlds better, but in that first several months all those demons you were drowning with alcohol will want to creep back up. In time you’ll learn to sit with the pain and learn to let it wash over you and eventually you’ll see that it’s fleeting and will pass. Just hold on.
Congrats again. Good luck moving forward.
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You are right. I attended one online meeting a while back but didn’t feel like it was the right one for me. Do you have any recommendations of finding one or just going and trying different ones out
Thank you for your words. I need to learn to be patient and to also not just expect quick fixes for everything. The last time I was sober for a period of time I got this overwhelming anxiety of my brain winning the fight and like I knew I was going to end up not having control over it eventually.
I’m trying to be strong this time and not listen to the voice in my head when it pops up - because I know it will.
I have had a hard time crying or feeling emotions due to being numb and it almost will be a relief the day I can let those things out of my body and release.
Happy to be here and sober and that’s something in the universe made me stumble upon using this platform. You are all such great people.
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This community has been a game changer for me too. It’s is one day at time. I don’t like think to think in forever terms as it a trigger for my 
. I’m coming up on 30days soon. It feels so good to sober and taking part in a real life again.
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Congrats on almost 30 days !! Yes it’s crazy how much more life there is, even just in this week for me.
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The first AA meeting I went to, before I hit RB honestly wasn’t the right vibe for me. But I found myself at a pub…very tempted and sad one Sunday afternoon and looked up AA times for the nearest meeting. It was at 6pm and I went and cowered in the back of the room. Not talking to anyone or making any eye contact. In fact, I was so ashamed and scared I stared down at the floor. I had tears in my eyes; not from sadness…but from the hope of shared experience in the speakers that night that they had been through the same things I have and they had something I wanted. Hope, joy and peace…let alone freedom from alcohol and drugs.
I did tons and tons of research when I was in rehab and time and again from a therapeutic, outcome driven point of view…when a person commits themselves to participating in AA (attending meetings, getting a sponsor and doing the steps) it gives the best chance of long term, sustained sobriety and provides a tool kit to do life with. Different from the selfish and self centered way we’ve been doing it.
Time for you to find a meeting (in person) and go to it. Then go back again and again and again…repeat. You got this!!
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How has your weekend been @bettertimesahead ?
Hope you’re ok. Have you attended a meeting?
Let’s go to another week alcohol free together.
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