Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed I get lost in my head. My boyfriend got arrested july 12th and is STILL there on a zero day hold. Small county. 1 judge. He sees you once and he remembers your face. 4 days after he got arrested my dog had 8 puppies. I’m working 2 jobs to try and maintain somewhat of a normal life for me and my 10 yr old son. But I’m tired. The puppies turned 4 weeks Saturday so 4 more to go thank God. Honeslty though, I desperately need the money from this accident litter. But I am EXHAUSTED. Broke my back 17 years ago and now have chrinic back pain. The pilla feom the dr led me to heroin. But I’ve been clean going on 2 years in November. But I can remember the things I used to be able to get done because I didn’t hurt anymore and I had all the energy in the world. I’m working 2 jobs and taking care of the puppies is ANOTHER full time job. On top of that I find out the 30th if I’ve got cancer. I’m all alone in this bottomless pit. I need help.
Hi Amanda, you’re not alone. We’re here with ya!
Jails let people out, he will be out at some point. Cancers are treatable if you have one, which you said you don’t know if you do. Whatever happens, happens and when we think too hard about future shit it robs us of today.
So proud of you and your 2 years, and, today is gonna be okay too as long as we don’t use or drink. It’s simple, let’s not over complicate it.
Really glad you’re here. Hugs & see ya around TS!
I was clean for 8 weeks and went to hangout with a old friend and relapsed. I been doing meth since I was 18 and no matter how hard I try it always gets the best of me.
I am proud of you and your recovery! I feel like it might be life on life’s terms. And realizing that recovery isn’t always going to be easy or feel good but living clean is worth it in the end. Your worst day clean is better than your best day high. I am glad you opened up. Thank you
Thank you moonchild7994 for the support it means everything to me. Its a struggle everyday and have so many problems going on in my life. I feel so weak and lost but I know I can get through this one day at a time.