Have much fun with it 
Oh my friend this is such heavy stuff.
There is A LOT going on around you. Give yourself some grace. If you weren’t struggling at least a bit with all of this I think that would be quite worrying in its own way!
I can relate to this! I felt so serious and boring for so long. I think I kind of needed to just shift into a different gear for a while. Note, I had the benefit of the pandemic while I was at my worst, which made it easier to just hide away. I mean with lockdown it was basically encouraged.
Some stuff from my own experience of the mental health crash that has been a big part of my recovery, which may or may not feel relevant.
I quit my job and all commitments. I was on some medication which I eventually realised did not suit me. Changing meds made a big difference. As did finding out and starting to work on iron and b12 deficiencies which both contribute to or cause fatigue and poor mental health.
Now, I have found the ability to enjoy some stuff I used to. But also I have found my groove with some new things. Something that was important in the transition from there to here was remembering to start from where I actually was, not where I thought I should be. Finding some acceptance of that was not easy, but once I did that things got a bit easier.
Glad you are here and hope feeling the care and support is helpful 
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