Welcome Craigg - I hear you. It is hard when your schedule doesn’t line up. Have you looked at a few other options? Take a look at this list:
You are not alone. Maybe give your wallet to someone for the day. Keep checking in here. I’ve had times here where I’ve set a timer and checked in every 5 minutes for hours. Whatever I needed. You can do that. Do whatever you need to do.
And be kind to yourself. Maybe take a bath, watch a movie. Show some love to yourself. Acknowledge this is hard, even say it aloud. I’m struggling, I’m really struggling.
Hang in there buddy. It is hard but you know it is better than the alternative 