For the first time since quitting all three of the major forms of technology I abuse, which has been a week, I’m craving technology abuse. I’ve been trying to start with my homework, but I keep checking if I have any new messages. I want to watch youtube very badly. I’m opening TS every few minutes. So I’m going to turn off my TS notifications.
This is the first time in a long while that I’ve had to fight cravings. The previous few months I kinda gave up the fight. And if I’m honest, I’m not all that motivated to quit both youtube and tv/streaming services.
Why do I say “finally” in the title? Because not craving or very little was good ammo for that voice to convince me that I’m not an addict. And recently it’s had quite convincing moments. Now that ammo is gone though.
I’m not sure what I should do. Do I keep going for homework or am I going to do something relaxing and unwillingly also condition myself to allow myself not to do homework when I don’t feel like it?
Answer: Balance. Why do I never think off balance??? Probably because my autistic brain naturally only thinks in extremes 
It’s an understandable problem which I can work on by paying attention to it and by doing so slowly integrating a less extremes based way of thinking.
Welp, this is probably the hardest to-follow post I’ve ever made 
I’m going to take a 15-minute break because that’s also an option 
My cravings have subsided significantly because simply writing things down works 
Thanks for joining me on this short but thrilling rollercoaster of a post 