Hi Casey, I hear you. We sorta think… this should be something, right? Like, where’s my gold star? Am I sober yet? 
It’s a hard feeling being in that space.
Sometimes I think as addicts we’re always running from one extreme to the other. We’re slippery, sliding between feeling like failures or like we should be ideal somethings (whatever our vision is). And we don’t live in the present, moving gradually, growing a bit every day.
I have no idea what normal is and I don’t know if it exists. But I think as addicts in recovery we create our own normal. For most of us it involves a community. Many people do recovery groups of some type (there are so many good options). A few people I’ve met have followed other paths. But all of them, all of the ones who’ve reached a stable, grounded life, have done it because they’ve worked a program of some type, and formed relationships that helped keep them accountable.
You’re at a new stage of your sobriety. This is a wonderful time for you actually 
Explore some of the programs here (link below) & find one that works for you. Play around with it. Explore your new sober life. (Also take baths and eat chocolate chip cookies and drink good tea. You’ve gotta be good to yourself.) You are meeting a new part of yourself. Get to know her. She’s great - you’ll love her