Lifes showing up. Things feel daunting. Ive struggled with etaying sober , but back to doing the deal for 2 months now. I feel so overwhelmed an praying to make it through. What scares me is does this get better , i mean i know it does but doesnt feel like it right now. Anyways prayers of ya will for my acceptance of gods will
I am really fresh in the feelings myself. Some moments it feels like I’m going to explode. I told my sponsor I hold my feelings in all day and come home and want to use and feel like I’m going to fall apart. They asked me why I hold it in all day, maybe you could do something right now in this very moment. For me, I scream into a pillow, I sit in the shower and cry, I just go outside and sprint until my lunges are empty and craving oxygen. Like I said, I’m brand new to this (like only on step 1) but I’m the type of person who doesn’t usually have the patience to passively wait for the experience to get better and less intense. Maybe you could try one of those techniques? Just a thought and I hope this helps!
Understand that feelings good or bad will come and go, nothing is permanent. It gets much better, dealing with feelings also gets much easier.