I have been struggling lately… I find myself more irritable and short tempered…sometimes it’s unbearable because I’m just plain angry and ask myself if it’s better to just go back to drinking then I won’t feel it. But then I think that it’s all the emotions I suppressed with drinking finally coming to the surface…how do I handle it?!
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I can totally relate to how you feel. Im at a year and some days and I still feel up and down. Shit job, broke, miss my kid…but if I choose to drink it all gets worse fast. Instead of anger it turns to horrible drunken depression. I do my best to remain grateful for my shit job etc. The feelings pass…staying active, coming here, doing zoom meetings, all that helps. Sometimes it comes down to just holding on and pushing through.
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I find reading a complete random place in the big book usually speaks to me
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I do find thst coming here helps! I am doing my best to power through guess I never realized how much built up emotions I had…I’m only 3 weeks today and the first 2 weeks were fantastic was so happy and energized but this last week has been a roller coaster of ups and downs… it definitely has been rough
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Hang in there…
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Hi Tammy, I also just want to say hang in there. I am almost 3.75 years sober and had the most AWFUL week. I’ve been crying this off and on this whole evening. It’s good you came on here instead of drinking. I remember feeling really irratable in early sobriety. Especially at my kids who were then 8 (I have twins). It’s super great that you have made it to 3 weeks. Be kind to yourself this weekend – it is really important especially in early sobriety! And keep coming on here.
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#1: I think you are a male posting this AND I’m A FEMALE MAYBE POSTING ABOUT A MAN like you and my husband who is talking quite similar tone to you who I am fleeing from life from to save my life so my thoughts are biased. But I definitely ask you look at WHY you’re struggling and whoever is in your life because whoever they are, good, or bad, are a big part of WHY YOU ARE STRUGGLING. It could be you or them. Look at it.
Well I’m definitely not a male…I am female versus why my name is Tammy…I am sorry you have a husband like that but not sure how that relates or helps me at all… sorry your going through an angry marriage or whatever you have going on truly I am… but that isn’t what I’m going through I’m going through all the emotions I suppressed with alcohol bubbling up to the surface cause I never wanted to deal with them so I ignored them and numbed it with alcohol…women are allowed to have anger too just like males are everyone copes in different ways… but I hope things work out in your situation
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Thank you that really helps and yes I can relate I have been finding myself extremely irritable with my stepdaughter (11) this last week. Honestly with all the ups and downs and mood swings it’s like a really bad Mother Nature case but on steroids because it changes so quickly and the smallest things will get under my skin. I have been trying to just ignore it I just don’t know how to control it without going off…1 minute happy next anger and anger usually last longer now first 2 weeks I was so happy not angry at all I just dint know where it came from all of a sudden…but coming on here helps knowing I’m not alone and I can read things to take my mind off it…thank you for the support
I am right there with ya. I find it gets especially rough when other people are out doing things, or it’s late at night and I’m bored. It’s almost like I get fomo (feeling of missing out) and it makes me bitter. I often also question myself like “why am I even doing this”. Rationalize all the reasons I should just have a drink. Just remember those feelings are totally normal. I find working out helps with the anger. Wear yourself out. Or maybe sitting with the anger and trying to get to the root of it. Journal, write an angry letter to alcohol. Eventually, I find the episodes of anger get shorter and more bearable as you pick up different healthy ways of coping without the booze. Good luck to you! Keep it going, you’re doing fantastic!
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Hang in there. It will pass. I was drinking for so long that I actually forgot who I was…what I liked and disliked, what I would and wouldn’t put up with. It all got mixed up because I was constantly numbing. I am a year and a couple of weeks sober now and I’m still finding out new things about myself. Anger is a part of this journey, IMHO… to help with it I bought myself a free standing boxing bag and gloves and sometimes would just go Ape shit on that bag! Lol. I’m not sure where this anger comes from but I do know that we have to feel it. We have to learn to feel feelings again and boy there are so many 
but it will pass lady! Drinking again WILL NOT HELP THIS! It will just cover up the work that you have already achieved in your 3 weeks so far (great work by the way) when we get sober we have to re-calibrate… re-balance and re-centre. Be kind to yourself though! We are here for you when ever you need us, one day at a time, together, we can do this 
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Please. Any thumbs up would be nice. Leaving was good even though I left using high interest pay day loans I can’t pay back. But, YES, I’m glad I left. There are not too many resources for single women without kids so I AM screwed financially since I paid September’s rent at the place I am not at and afraid to go back to. I’m in a $360/week hotel BUT YES please someone tell me I’m right or just give a thumbs up. However, when I did call the police on him two months ago, I knew he would not go to jail, I was hoping having someone of authority talk to him might make a difference. It did not but I did not file a police report but my landlord called me a couple days later because thankfully, I guess they share things! So my landlord knows there is an issue and I’m hoping the “association” lets me out of my lease or will just be kind and maybe allow me to go to another property they own. That is my hope. And I AM hopeful even though I will never return to my family…I have plenty in the Chicago area and suburbs but hallelujah I set that boundary to not be around people are not healthy for me, So I am doing it for the second time with this crazy man. And I know I’ve made the right choice.
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