Struggling after going to court with my abuser. I’ve not looked at his social medias in almost 117 days but I’m really feeling so trauma bonded. I want to look so badly. I feel like if there wasn’t a screen between us in court I would’ve run back into the abuse cycle. Why is it like this 
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I’m sorry you had to go through that possibly retraumatizing experience. Are you getting any support through this? Counseling/therapy? Any victim’s services through the courts? If not I highly recommend it because it is too much to deal with alone. I’m glad you came here to share. Sending hugs and virtual support.
You are showing so much strength by NOT going on the socials. And by holding back you recognize the extreme danger there. Can you delete the socials completely for now?
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There are some great you tube videos from psych 2 go if you can’t see a therapist right away. They cover trauma bonding and narcissism as well as other topics. The animations are also cute. Just look up “psych2go” on you tube and find the topics that speak to you. Good luck, you’ve come so far, there is no sense in turning back. You know what is back there if you turn back, why not try going in the direction of the unknown?
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I have a support worker who I’m due to talk to soon. I’m just trying to distract myself and get on with my day with as little screen time as I can to stop the temptation. It’s annoying bc every time I feel like I won’t look ever again something happens that makes me crave to
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Thank you for your words of support - i will check that YouTube creator out 
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