Struggling with my thoughts and staying positive about personal life

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Ive been in my head lately about my personal life and how i wish I didn’t relapse and how much i regret all that. I’m about a month clean and feel everyday i get closer to 30 days it’s getting hard to keep my positive mind set on track. My marriage is broken, my family is broken, my heart is broken, and I’m in my home by myself. Just wishing time would past by faster so i could be past this feeling of struggling.

I have no cravings of drugs or alcohol. I just wish to have my life back together like it once was before i relapse or before i drank so heavily.

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Hopefully as you remain sober for long you can work on fixing some of the things that are broken…

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Hoping for a different past will break your heart and drive you mad. But keep sober and you can move forward into a new life, where you can build new connections and maybe you can mend some bridges too. It will take time, but have patience and faith. :purple_heart:

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Thank you i appreciate it alot

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Thank you for replying and giving me a different perspective on my situation and a better outcome.

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Welcome Leslie. In my own head is a rough place too. Shit I think for all of us that’s true.

I do believe that we are all exactly where we are supposed to be at this point in time. Some shitty, some not so and others doing well. It does get better, as long as we stay the course.

Be proud of your days & kind to yourself as best you can and know you’re not alone.

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I truly appreciate it, i find myself crying more but with happy tears because of all the beautiful support i get now. I’m grateful for all of the people that have been here for my journey. I hope you have a wonderful night. Thank you again.

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Congratulations on all your sober days. That’s amazing and the best thing to get a handle on life’s problems. It was for me.

To the sentence you mentioned, made me think as to how I drank to fast forward through my negative emotions. It never worked. Often people write here: sit with your feelings. They will pass in the appropriate time when we allow them to pass. They won’t kill us. And while this sounds like blablabaaaaa. It became true for me. No feeling stays forever.

Ah, and welcome to this wonderful community. :sunflower:

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Thank you for the wise words i appreciate them :pray:

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It might not seem it now but sobriety will bring you things that you know nothing of yet if you keep the faith and stay sober, for now make your sobriety and yourself your top priorities and work hard on them, but while you do that its so important to be kind to yourself to give yourself the very best chance at recovery, get back to basics…treat your body well…eat good food, hydrate properly, excersise then start with the mental side…actually list down what brought you to drinking and find ways to working in them seeking out as much help as you can possibly get, it all takes time but it is so worth it. Visit this site daily, we are all here for you anytime you need us.

A couple of things that helped me early on…

Allen cars easy way to stop drinking is great for mindset around drinking

The ‘Stutz’ documentary on Netflix is great for starting from scratch with mental health, great life tools to help with all aspects of life

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Thank you for some good easy to start on my mental part of my journey. I’ll look into it for sure. I appreciate all the help. Thank you🙏

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Your thread is such a beautiful reminder of how life will definitely always be there for all of us…the good times, the bad times, all the times. And that with sobriety and community support and facing our lives we are still okay. Even tho our heart may be broken. We can continue to be okay and sober and learn new ways of being here now.

:people_hugging::heart:

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Thank you so much for your kind words. It’s hard to move forward some days because of my thoughts and mental health. One thing my mom taught me at a young age is pray. So i chose to pray instead of using any type of drug. I want to have my mind with clean and clear thoughts so i make sure to make the right decision and not be clouded by substance. I hope you and everyone else has an amazing day, week, month, year, decade, and so much more. :pray::pray::pray:

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Have patience

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Thank you and i will be more patient for sure.

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Be patient and give all that stuff time to get fixed, the parts that can be fixed, I mean

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I’m finally letting go and letting God. If it’s meant to be it’ll be. And I’m not God so i need to stop trying to control things i will never have control over. I can only control myself with the help of God. Thank you and i hope you have a great day.