Hi everyone, im new to sobriety and im really struggling and need some advice or maybe someone who can relate.
2 days ago i got drunk abroad, took a lot of other substances and cheated on my partner… i do horrible things when i drink because i cant stop.
Im really struggling with the shame and feeling like im a bad person who doesnt deserve to be around anymore.
I have my first meeting on Tuesday, i just am really struggling to function day to day and im still abroad with noone speaking english…
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Welcome @Tee55 im glad you found us. This place and AA have been crucial to my sobriety.
I know that guilt and shame so well. Im sorry you are experiencing that. I would encourage you to put as much time into your recovery as you put into your addiction.
Stick around
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I can relate 
There’s a terrible person who dwells within me who does disgusting things I’d never dream to. Fortunately she’s only activated by alcohol. As long as I continue to say ‘no’ to the only drink I can, the first one, she won’t be making any appearances anytime soon.
I was going to suggest AA to deal with the guilt and shame of the past, but it looks like you’re already ahead of me 
The ruminating I was doing for monthes is what finally pushed me into the rooms. They showed me ways to let go and move on from the past. AA, as well as this community, changed my life. I hope you can find your peace 
Wishing you all the best in your journey 
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Welcome! Working the steps released me of my guilt and shame and took away my cravings and desire to drink. Nothing else could so it just works…
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Hola. I’m new here as well. I’m hitting 30 days tmrw. Been on this wagon for a long time. But I know your words because I too was the same. The guy I turned into when I got like that, his name is Charles. Charles is buried in the ground for good. All it ever took was that 1 dang drink and all cares went bye bye. If you knew me in real life and then met Charles, you’d be really fricken shocked! The guilt goes away in time. Stick with those meetings. They’re helping me and being here is awesome. When you’re thinking about that drink, think of that other you you’re about to unleash and think if they will survive the actions next time. Stick around with us
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Hi Takara and welcome,
I think we all here has our own weight of shame and guilt to deal with. I have mine.
But happy to say they are a few years behind me because this app and the people in it helped me to enter a sober life.
Stick around here, there is always someone to talk to! We are here 24/7 
Good of you to join a meeting tuesday. If you need one earlier know that you can find them online too! Her is one for example:
See you around!! 
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