Welcome to the addiction club 
I can say that my sobriety time has been the time I felt most alive, most present, most like myself (instead of hiding or feeling regret). I love being sober.
There’s lots of good resources about getting healthy (which, for us - people recovering from addiction - means we need to be sober). There’s a thread with lots of groups and podcasts and books here:
And there’s loads of people checking in here (there’s a “Checking in daily” thread - you’ll see it in the list of threads) and supporting each other one day at a time.
You are not alone. It is possible, and you are not alone.
Welcome to Talking Sober! 