Hey welcome to the community!!!
It has nothing to do with being weak minded. We have an illness and when we are in active addiction sometimes the obsession to use is very strong. You are right you do need us, you cant do this alone and its amazing that you have figured that out!!! We are so much stronger together.
I had to go minute by minute for the first five days. Every morning i woke up and I hadnt used the day before was a win and I woke up with a little more hope. I was in active addiction for 33 years and I finally was able to get off that wicked merry-go-round in 2019.
There is a daily check in thread that I basically lived on for my first year of recovery I will link it below. Its super active and you can check in there when you need some support.