Terrifying or bad experiences

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I recently at the beginning of june have experienced Something i never knew i would… a viscous assault by a “friend” both of us actively using but he’s the more stable minded drug dealer and im the depressed unmedicated schizophrenic bipolar guy with slim positive self guidance and motivation to do the right thing, at that point, and he targets me… just wanting to buy a sack he beats me with a golf club… stabs me… forces me into his tent then he beats me some more forcing me to unlock my phone which i cant do because he fractured my cheeck and cracked my forehead too… my mind was dazed… so he beats me more then I remembered suddenly… he gives me the phone back for some reason… he gave my ebt card back… he knows i just gotten paid too a grand… but he forces me to smoke fentanyl im like fuck dude okay…. I do and i swear i thought i was going to fall out… i dint and he ssys heres more i said no no no… then i sit there…reach for my bag to get cigarettes and he says whatre you doing?? So obviously he has intentions… hes not sorry… hes not “too high” hes right here with intentions to hurt me possibly kill me…

I will never know now and i have to sit with it now in my own SLE as i sit on the bus as i sit in an AA/NA meeting as im trying to support my sister and mom who still battle in their disease….

Tell me im not alone that im okay… please im not feeling good right now im scared

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No your not alone…
It is traumatic that friend can go to such depths but unfortantly thou you stay stable drug user… Like you he is an addict and while he carries on using he can’t accept the damage done.

Seek medical advice maybe therapy, put boundaries in place so you either never have contact with this person or have someone with you if you ever have to be in his presence…

I don’t know about you but when I was attacked, afterwards I kept asking myself why didn’t I fight back. I accepted fear held me back because it could so easily esculated to death…

No your not alone some of us have been the victims of an attack and others the ones that have attacked… Addiction strops us our morals… There is no wrong oath when feeding the addiction…

I hope you find peace and forgive yourself as it wasn’t your fault on what happened to you x

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Thank you homegirl hugs

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I just have to establish the healthy boundaries watch who i call my friends, alot of them are bad people who dont have anyones well being in mind and will hurt or kill with out asking questions. My ol associates are still doing dirt they dont have much hope or options to do different but they have the choice to do right or wrong. Stuck in a vicious cycle of addiction