Tested positive for Covid in treatment & sent home on day 11

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I’m not even exactly sure what I’m doing with this post, or if I’m even writing it in an effective manner… however I do know that I need some feedback/support/advice/love/positive vibes sent my way.
On Friday the 21st of January, I was coming to the end of my 11th day at my 28 day treatment program. I have been struggling with my use since I relapsed in August 2021. I sought out treatment finally, because I want to be happy and healthy again… I want to be myself again. Nevertheless, I’m damn ready to battle my demons.
Treatment ends up being a total unexpected experience; I’m so ready and willing to be vulnerable in these process groups and discussions, just so I can feel relief. I’m loving programming and laughing more than I have in ages, and I’m told to pack my things…
Twice a week we have to comply with mandatory and routine testing for Covid-19. Turns out I was one of the unfortunates who tested positive from the previous day. I’m honestly distraught and frustrated.
PRIOR TO THIS I HAD BEEN ADMITTED ON DECEMBER 21st AND 4 DAYS LATER THE ENTIRE FACILITY SHUT DOWN DUE TO COVID.
I had to reschedule with admissions, and after the facility had reopened, I was able to go back January 10th.

I guess I’m just struggling with all of this. I want to complete this amazing program, but I’m a single mom with two boys and my being able to be in treatment is completely dependent on finding childcare while I’m away. My family is supportive and are willing to work with me on that aspect, but I can’t help but feel defeated. Why when I am finally ready to admit I am powerless and fight for my life, are all these major road blocks getting thrown down my path?

I’m going to get rescheduled and go back, but searching for support I can hold with me in the mean time. Also super interested in unique kind of coping skills and other resources.

Sorry in advance :flushed:

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Welcome Sydney :purple_heart: There’s no doubt Covid sucks and that’s a lot of disappointing for you to handle. You sound determined, that’s good. Stick to you sober plan. Take in some zoom meeting and counseling if possible. Try to view this as a change of course on your sober journey not a breakdown or road block. Keep moving forward toward your goal ODAAT

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Welcome Sydney! I’m really sorry that you’ve had to put your in patient treatment on hold. You have the enthusiasm that’s needed to succeed and that’s admirable. While you’re waiting to go back, try to immerse yourself into online meetings. There are many out there to choose from. If you use the magnify glass at the top and search “online” a list of topics will appear. I personally like the following, there are woman only meetings and the group is called “soul sister”.

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Hi welcome :slightly_smiling_face:
Im sorry your having such a hard time being able to have proper access to treatment.

Just dont let that make you give up and keep you in a dark place.

Im sending you lots of hugs :blush: and also have you in my prayers :pray:

Im glad you found us here, this community has helped me to stay sober, the support given here has meant my hand has been held by all these lovely people who care about my journey through the bad and good days and i know you will have this support here too and have your hand held too, so well done for reaching out here so we can help you too.

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

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Sydney, that absolutely sucks. I’m so sorry. It takes a lot of courage to commit to rehab when you have children at home, only to have to check out early. This forum is a huge source of support. We are here for you. I do a lot of online zoom meetings including AA and The Luckiest Club. Keep checking in. We are rooting for you!

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