I just woke up from a horrible dream, it felt sooooooooooooooo real. I was dreaming that I had relapsed again and in my drunk state I had once again terrorized people of the city and once again broke the hearts of my loved ones. It felt like I was waking up the day after I created the whole mess. Horrible horrible HORRIBLE dream and feeling. I don’t even think I can go back to sleep even if I tried. The only thing I know is that I NEVER want to wake up with that feeling of regret after a relapse EVER AGAIN. I NEVER want to wake up asking myself “How badly did I screw up before I passed out and who do I owe an apology to?”
I guess that’s what I can take from the dream(more like NIGHTMARE) that I just woke up from.
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Relapse dreams are so horrid. They just feel so real!
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Thankfully it was only a nightmare. Hope you can shake the horrible feeling left from it. Dreams can really blow sometimes.
I had a relapse dream myself last night. I hate the feeling. In my dream I was presented with a beer and I had a whole thought process of whether or not I drink it and I decided I would. Actually, now that I think about it my dream was full of so much turmoil and activity that while I picked up the drink several times I never took a drink before I woke up.
Basically I think our dreams are about working through thoughts in our head. For your dream perhaps you needed the reminder as to why you are on this journey. I think my dream indicates a wish for drink but I’m thinking it through in a safe place. Both of us can use the dreams as a way to strengthen our resolve.
Good morning!! And I’m glad you’re still sober.