I have been on here in the past but had a break. For the past year I have been struggling to fight addiction. Bit by bit the addiction is destroying everything. My partner left his job, became mentally ill, wrote off both cars, got arrested/has to attend court, will lose his license at minimum. Apart from all of this, our once deep, loving bond has turned toxic and hateful. I am trapped because he wont let me go out alone but gets drunk as soon as he wakes, so i wont get in the car with him. This leaves me stuck at home while he drinks and blasts music. Eventually i snap, we fight more…every day now i wake with dread and anxiety. I am trapped , i feel i need a more stable environment in order to remain sober…
can you go to You Tube and watch some AA videos or something helpful or soothing. Use your earbuds oe headphones if you can. I am playing 4K campfire by the river right now. Please let any family, friends or neighbors know that you are in peril, start planning your escape. Get hydrated, eat a meal, take vitamins, do your laundry, get your ID and papers ready. We are here, hang on, OK? xoxoxo
I’m so sorry to hear about your situation. Can I ask if you have any children or family and friends close by? I want you to know his issues are his alone and I’m so sorry you are caught in the crossfire. I have been in a similar situation before and I know how hard it is. Life really can get better on the other side but we have to be brave and make some pretty huge changes to make it happen. Please know you aren’t alone. Hugs!
How are you doing today? I hope you have rested and eaten something. Reach out to your friends and fam and us OK? Maybe you could cook up some food and try and feed the angry man in your house to balance out his mood/health. Maybe he’d take a nap after eating well and you can organize some stuff for yourself and an escape plan. Pack a bug out bag. You will feel better if you do some prep. XOXO