So as of Friday I was arrested for battery. I am on probation for my second DUI I should not have been drinking in a bar. I had some guy say something to me very disrespectful. Obviously due to me drinking I saw red and hit this man about four times. So now I am dealing with what is going to happen next. My court date is on the 28th of next month. I have been doing well in my probation through this year. I still do fear the worst. I knew a couple weeks ago when I was drinking and a situation had happened mainly just me getting emotional and saying things that I would never say to people. Every time I think I’m fine and I’m happy I believe that I would be in a better mood. I was wrong. So this week I have added alcohol to my sobriety. I am one day sober off of alcohol and 10 days sober from cocaine. I know it’s one day at a time but I feel that myself sabotage will and always has gotten the best of me. I know these things come along with my bipolar but I also know there are things we can do to try to control these. But there is a hard Road and an easy Road I’m guaranteed to take the hard one to learn that way it seems. I appreciate that I have a community that I can open up to and be honest with this is my almost second week using this app. Thank you for the kind vibes
It takes time for the brain to re-adjust to sobriety, so the early days and months can be hard. Focus just on today, what you feel, what you CAN do to make living sober preferable, to take good care of your physical and mental health. Sometimes it’s playing the tape forward and having an honest look on what you DON’T want to be the outcome. Sometimes it’s going for a walk, breathing deep and being kind and caring to yourself. Sometimes it’s heading to bed early because we don’t borrow from tomorrow. Read around here, use the search function, you will find tools and experiences in abundance from which you can learn, take what’s suitable for you and of course try new things!
Just for today we live a sober life from minute to minute. Tomorrow we maybe will do the same.
Thank you guys for the helping words. This is truely already a hard oath and I wasn’t one to drink alot but when I did, let just say it could go anyway but lately towards anger ect. I recently learned that they messed up my meds and cut my effexor in half for the last week I’ve been taking half my biipolar meds and an upped does of my other medication. I understand that meds only do so much and we have to do our part too but I feel as if it definitely contributed to my situation I have put myself in over the weekend today that was my struggle and when that happens I want to have a drink. Either way thank you for listening to me ramble and for replying. I am thankful for this community. 