I was stood on a beach in the cold and wet and I thought ’ I really need a cup of tea’. I got myself a takeaway one and had a sip which resulted in the same sigh of satisfaction as a cold beer on a hot day.
Not funny to most people but for an alcoholic of my kind this made me stop and laugh to myself.
What surprises you about your sobriety, where you were to where you are now?
I was out last night and we had dinner and a nice walk and by 9pm I was done and ready to go home to bed.
I never used to leave anywhere until I was kicked or dragged out 
The peace of going home and relaxing is something g I never thought I’d enjoy.
My brother hugged me on Thanksgiving and had alcohol on his breath because its a holiday and he’s a drinker. This doesn’t make me feel like I’m missing out on anything anymore. It makes me want to hug him harder and have open conversations about his happiness and the health of his brain.
I thought I would always crave alcohol when I was around it. That isn’t the case.
The funny little grin i do to myself every morning i wake up sober after a drinking dream, i do the same internal grin when i see people who are hungover altho i dont show it on my face (sorry)
When something annoys me or preys on my mind and I think “I really have to inventory that”. Quite AA specific that one.
I went through two years of stressful stuff: Getting fired from my job, falling and breaking my leg, being unemployed for 10 months straight, having to move in with my elderly Mom to take care of her, depression, etc. Through all that I didn’t have one relapse…not once. I dealt with it all sober.
So beer was by DOC in particular. I could drink pints of the stuff. 10 pints in a sitting would be no drama in my 20s. Then I started getting sicker and sicker on less and less beer. Turns out I am gluten intolerant which means that after years of not knowing, my gut is really sensitive to it. Gave up beer 3 years ago and the thing that makes me laugh and shake my head in disbelief? Whenever I walk past a pub I now find the smell disgusting - just like I did when I was a kid and first tried beer! Unimaginable for someone who spent 20 years in about a million bars, pubs and clubs.
With my 24 year old twin sons and their 26 year old older brother this Thanksgiving. They grew up watching me drink, a lot. They either don’t partake or have one or two and are done.
The 26 year old got married 9/9/23 - didn’t have a drop of alcohol all day or night!
How are these kids so sensible when they witnessed insanity? Funny thing…
18 days sober, and now my brain’s throwing parties in my dreams! 
Dreaming of epic hangovers, wild dancing, driving like a tipsy racecar driver, and attempting a straight-line walk as if I’m on a cosmic high. 
My subconscious knows how to throw a party, even if it’s in Dreamland! Cheers to the wild imagination! 
#DreamParty #SoberAdventures
funny how all the things i once believed were so heavy and impossible are now so fluid and manageable.
On Thursday, Thanksgiving I sat and watch others drink and make fools of themselves. The entire time I just kept telling myself thank god I’m sober and not embarrassing myself.
Sobriety kept me from saying rude things and simply enjoying myself.