This is the last time you have to have this first anniversary. I can’t believe it’s been a year. 
Honor that sweet fellow with a run.
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I did a little hike today just to help with the acclimation cause I’m a few thousand feet above where I live. I saw a little red fox 
It was fleeting because I think I scared it. The sighting was enough to give me some motivation for tomorrow. I’m all about signs from the universe I wasn’t able to grab a pic of him but here’s a few of the trail
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awe - love this! Like he’s reaching out to you to let you know he’s happy about your run 
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Exactly my thoughts. 
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I’m glad you saw a fox, how cool!
Have a great race! I bet it will be an emotional one. I’ve had some very emotional ones… they were great actually. Enjoy the day and your Fox thoughts!
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Checking in. Made it home 
I did my race and this year I felt stronger. Maybe it was helpful to know the course. It still took me forever but I was able to shave 10 minutes off!! Which I’m crazy proud of. I have been slacking on my running lately, only doing shorter distances. My legs are very sore, I almost rolled my ankle a few times, and there were tears but I finished it and honestly I couldn’t have asked for much more than that. I stopped at one of those hometown diners and got a very nice lunch after. I’m gonna sleep so good tonight lol
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So lovely to read this update! Glad you had such an amazing race and grateful that you did not end up rolling your ankle.
You are looking absolutely radiant! So very proud of you 
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I feel like looking radiant AFTER running 9.5 miles in the woods is quite the compliment 
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Congratulations @Runningfree
I was going to say the exact same thing that @JazzyS said so instead of not saying it I will say it! You look absolutely radiant after your race! Lots to be proud of there! I am super proud of you and it’s good to see you with such a nice smile! Sleep well!
Editing to say. You always have a nice smile, always, always,always!
Especially so after running 9.5 miles at altitude. How much higher was it than where you live?
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Good job showing up for yourself @Runningfree proud of you sister
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I live at 3500ft and I was running at 8500-8900 
I did my 5k this morning and I was like oh, wow. I can breathe 
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It’s been a while since I’ve done a check in. I think mostly just because I haven’t taken the time to sit down and write it all out. Plus it’s pretty personal and I was hoping to get my thread back but I haven’t gotten back into the lounge. Next week we are making a trip to our home town. The hubs and I have very different views on it. He doesn’t want to leave and most of the time I can’t wait to get out of there. My dad is still in and out of the hospital with heart troubles. He messaged the other day saying he was in the hospital and they were doing a stress test. He is always weird about going to the hospital. He doesn’t tell anyone anything until it’s serious and when it is he only gives limited details. He said the doctors told them they can’t do anything for his heart. I asked why hasn’t he asked about being put on the transplant list and he just said he doesn’t think he is a candidate. He has been having heart attacks and strokes and surgeries for 27 years. I feel like if he had been on the transplant list he could have made it to the top by now. Maybe not but still why not ask. I’m always excited to see my friends and my sister/nephews but my resentment towards him puts a stain on the visit.
A huge development is the hubs. About a week ago he had a dream or vision or something of the sort. He said God spoke to him in his sleep. He has immersed himself in that. He is about 2 weeks sober now and is on day 3 without cigarettes. I’m happy and proud of him but it feels weird. It feels like another thing he is throwing himself into and will stop after the new has worn off. He went to church last night and was baptized. I’m not religious and have never been so for me to understand having a vision and then full heartedly believing in God is a very difficult concept for me.
I have been in a weird place of not wanting to get out of bed in the morning. I use to get up at 5 or 530 at the latest but the past few months I have stopped getting up. I’ve been getting up around 7-8. I have still been getting some kind of workout in. Running, walking or yoga. I have not been doing much weight training. I recently started pilates and man, that is some hard stuff. I feel like I’ve hit a plateau with the workout app I’ve been using and I’m thinking of switching to something else. I found a trainer on youtube and she has different programs but they are like 30 day things so a video a day. Bonus- they are free. I haven’t decided about canceling my workout app but it never hurts to try something.
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I think it’s nice that your husband found something that on the whole is healthy and could be very inspiring and empowering to him, something beneficial that could keep his mind in a positive place hopefully, and not wanting to slip down into wanting to kill himself or use harmful drugs.
ODAAT on it. The church community atmosphere could be very helpful for him.
Life is full of phases and stages. You are very committed and a good bit regimented and you will get back to a schedule that you like that is beneficial to your continuing physical health.
As far as your father goes, if they couldn’t do anything, then why are they doing a stress test.
If he has the ability to walk around that’s good, if he’s bedbound that’s not so good.
I’m sorry that he has had so many years of cardiac complications and disability.
I hope for the best for him, and that they do see that there are certain things that they can do, including putting him on a heart transplant list.
Perhaps you’ll have the opportunity to talk to the doctor.
It’s all ODAAT. Big hugs. Lots of love.
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Count your blessings. Hubbys sober. Hope for the best but try not to have expectations. Sending strength on your trip home. We’re a message away
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Sorry that the lounge is still not available - grateful that you are able to post here. Wishing you loads of love and strength as you do your trip to your home town.
Sorry to hear about your dads heart issues. Sorry that he is not trying to get on the transplant list. Hopefully he will ask and try to get some more help. Hard to hear that something can’t be done. I do hope that you are able to enjoy your visit home
A HUGE development for sure with the hubby. SO very grateful for the change in spirit and mindset. Hope he continues ODAAT
Changing up your routine may be a good motivator for sure. I do know that I find myself in a rut with same ol same ol. Hope the new programs help. The change in weather has had me sleeping in these days. Maybe same is happening for you?
Much love Jennifer - Great to see you checking in
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Good morning guys 
Checking in post trip. It was pretty good, dare I say great visit. I am very peopled out and my social battery is 0. The hubs went back to work today but I took it off to just spend the day by myself. We drove over thursday and I went to dinner with my longtime best friend. We have known each since we were 10. It was a dumpling place and the food was so good. We just talked about stuff and things for a while. I was telling her how I think Haley might be getting arthritis and she was like I have some soft stairs if you want them so she brought those to me. Haley used them once without prompting at the airbnb but they don’t line up perfect with our bed so she hasn’t been wanting to use them. We just plan to keep working with her on it. We pick her up to get in bed so I just want her to use them going down. Friday we went to lunch with my dad and his wife, which wasn’t as terrible as expected. We ate and chatted for a while and then the hubs and I went and did a little shopping. We went back to the Airbnb to check on/take the dogs out. Friday night we went out to a arcade place and I had a blast. We meet up with my other BF (we meet when we were 9) and the hubs BF and his family. We did some laser tag and played the games. I was playing a game of connect four basket ball when my BF got there and I was jumping up and down cause I had won and she was like how many drinks are you on. We talked about my sobriety and she was surprised and impressed lol I don’t talk about my sober struggle on other socials so she just didn’t know I had quit. Saturday we took the dogs to the park and to petsmart where we picked out toys and Bella sat and watched the birds. Then we went to the zoo with my sister and my nephews. It was a good time. Everyone had fun and most of the animals were out and about. Saturday night we went to dinner with my coworkers. Sunday the hubs went to his dad’s grave site and went to see his grandma. I stayed at the airbnb with the dogs and a friend came over for a few hours of talking over coffee. Then monday we drove home. Yesterday the hubs was off so we did the laundry from the trip, went grocery shopping for the week and he cleaned up the porch of all the cigarettes and ash trays. It looks so much better now. We are talking about getting a patio set. Before I didn’t even like being out there because it was just gross. Looked trashy and smelled of cigarettes but now it looks a lot bettter. The hubs is very much still on his religious path. He cleaned up our third bedroom and put a desk in there for him to read at. He is still sober and cigarette free. We have been talking more and he is not so quick to get defensive. We had a small spat like situation a week ago. He made the statement I wonder if my dealer misses me. He meant it as a joke. I didn’t see it that way and I said you shouldn’t romanticize a situation with your drug involved. He got mad and shut down. We got home and he spent some time reading his bible and we had a conversation. He has tried a church but he said he isn’t sure if that’s for him. I think he is doing just fine with reading and his devotions but I also support he finding a church if he wants. The girls are good. They had a great vacation. I was worried about Bella since it was her first trip but she did great. She got in the back and laid down and just chilled for pretty much the whole ride. Haley sat on her pillow in my lap like normal but refused to nap. She wanted to look out the window the whole ride lol I’m glad it was a good visit but I’m also happy to be home and returning to my hermit lifestyle 
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So happy to hear that your trip went well. Love everything about it.
Great to hear that your hubs is still on his path and working well on his journey. 
Much love Jennifer 
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AAAWWWWEEEE YEAH! Get it girl! Way to go with your 4 years of awesomeness! Keep going strong 
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