Day 11. Feeling great today. Went to the ceremony at church because my two little twin nieces were baptized today. And now there is a big family event/ party with friends and family. Big lunch. Coffee cake and of course almost everybody is drinking. Some weeks ago it would have been me too drinking. But now Iām leaning back with my coke zero and enjoying the showš it is quite funny to see a lot of people drinking and talking nonsenseā¦ One of the guys asked me three times the same thing alreadyā¦ Hahahaā¦ Actually also a bit scary thinking it is only 2:30pmā¦ Alcohol is so widely accepted in our society. Iām not suffering to not drink. Iām thankful and happy when I think about tomorrow getting up without a hangover being able to go to work fit!!!
I like your thread Julia. Thanks for sharing. Youāre doing great!
Hi @adeygaga49.
I commend your strength to get up and try again. Never give upā¦ Never.
Did I understand correctly that you were triggered by being alone at home while your daughter was out with friends?
@adeygaga49 Hey Adrienne. I hope you are doing better today? Iām a bit worried. I hope you feel alright. Thinking of you!!! 
Iām ok Julia thank you for thinking of me. Went out for lunch to a coffee shop with a friend and it was nice to get out. Iām just quite sad today so Iām a bit quiet but Iām ok. Youāre doing fantastic by the way. Really proud of you xxš
Thatās very good to get out. To be with friends. To get your mind thinking of better things. I understand that you are sad but better days will come again I know. And you have made it further before. Now you start again. Maybe try something different this time?
The best thing is that you are honest to yourself 
Iāve downloaded audio books on sobriety and a quit drinking hypnosis thing also. Tomorrow Iām going to look at smart recovery online and get totally focussed. I start work full time on the 3rd June and I hope it will also help me focus and keep busy. Thank you for your kindness x
You can do this girl. I know you can!
Iām really sorry you had to reset Adrienne.
Keep smiling 
Thank you Geoff I do know Iām getting to the point of no return and itās probably frustrating for you guys with lots of sober time to see the trip ups but I know Iām a completely different person to even a month ago or I could not have left someone I still love. Iām working on it and Iām getting it more than Iām not getting it but I still have a way to go. Iām most definitely not giving up though. I wouldnāt even be this far forward without this forum. Deep breaths shoulders back and on I go 
Hugs Cate, did you manage a nice chilled day? X
So I have been exactly where you have been not long ago. Reset after reset. I seriously started asking myself what to do different what to changeā¦ For me it helped being on this app a lot. Reading about others has helped me sooooo much. And seeing how everyone is succeeding here motivated me a lot. Ultimately what helps me staying sober day by day now is the feeling I have every morning. And every dayā¦ Wishing you all the best and reach out here often!!
We will indeed with lots of support. Thinking of you. Sleep time here xx
My mind is all over the shop to, so much info to take in, itās all whizzing round. Think tomorrow some meditation in the morning before I go pick the boy up from grandads.
Been a lovely day here though, Iām feeling good, and hope you are again soon Youāve got this sweetie! Xx
Your right tommorrows a new day, get up make the bed and take it from there. Xx
Oh you are right. Now I remember that it was you saying you will disappear for a while? 
What happened to that? Donāt get me wrong I think we all enjoy you here but you need to do of course whatās best for you! Good luck with it
Hi Julia Iām doing ok although I spent all morning waiting on a gas man to replace my boiler but was a no show ! Have to wait until Wednesday now. Iāve just been grocery shopping and home now. Thank you for thinking of me . Going to cheer myself up by looking at holidays for next year. Canāt do a big one this year. Hope youāre still doing good. And you @anon51407452
Where abouts are you again Cate I forget x