Lately, I’ve been feeling so disconnected from life and reality that I don’t really want to be around anyone. I know isolating is one of the worst things to do, especially because I’m still early in my recovery. I just feel like I’m somehow going to hurt the people around me like I did during my addiction, or that there’s never going to be forgiveness from my loved ones. I have borderline personality disorder so that also makes any relationship in my life difficult. I guess I’m just having a tough time navigating my sobriety while battling my mental health. I’m on medication, but lately everything has been a struggle for me. It’s been really difficult being able to be present with other people and it makes me feel guilty. I just want to be alone for the most part because I’ve been super in my head trying to heal from everything that happened during my addiction, so I’ve been crying a lot and I just want to feel these things In the comfort of my own space by myself but idk if that’s healthy.
Does anyone else feel the need to just isolate for the sake of yourself and those around you?
I felt that a little during the earliest stages but we are experiencing a wide range of emotions for the first time in a long time. What I did do though was attend an online meeting nearly every day as I was aware just how dangerous isolation is to an addict or alcoholic. The people in those meetings have been where you are, maybe give one a try🥰
I feel isolating a lot from drunk and drinking people. Maybe shift you focus too fill your life with like minded people? I know that not talking to anyone and isolating myself from everyone will put me to end up drinking again… I hope you can feel a bit happier again
Like @Tafkap said go to meetings. It helped me to understand that I’m not alone with my addiction and that there are people that think and are exactly like me! And come here often. There are always some nice people to reply back
I did this is the beginning too, someone once said to me that its ok to not be ok…its how you feel and that makes it valid and not something you should feel guilty for…and that is very true. Dealing with addiction and mental health is very difficult so you must put yourself, your sobriety and your healing as your top priority and it is absolutely ok if not essential to do that. For now and for the greater good it really only matters about you right now. If you need support we are here for you 
True, I haven’t been going to enough meetings, I often forget that everyone there has been where I am now which helps so much!
Thank you! I definitely feel lonely because I lost so many people due to my addiction and then I lost more people in my sobriety because I can’t be around people drinking. It just gets draining sometimes 
I appreciate that so much! I love the support of the community on here
I totally get what ur saying. I also have BPD and am on medication for it also. Meds help alot but at times it can feel like a constant back n forth pull to be around others or to isolate. Often times i feel like isolating bcuz im way over stimulated. Being over stimulated drains me. Being alone actually recharges me. Sometimes i get tired of my thinking and feel the need to isolate and not be around others bcuz of how im thinking. But ur absolutely right in that isolation can be an addicts/alcoholics worst friend. Meetings help (in person or online) bcuz i can be around others while not having to participate if i dont want to (i can just listen and take in recovery that way). And u know… its okay to have time to urself also. Its finding that balance that works for u 
That is exactly how it is for me too! It can get so frustrating sometimes. But you’re right, it’s all about finding a healthy balance between alone time and being around others. Thank you, It’s comforting knowing there’s others who go through this as well 
I couldn’t have put this better, i too get energised from being alone…i love people but i need regular time out to process everything…im a long deep thinker so it takes time alone to make sense of things especially if things get tough. I do hope you are well dear friend
Same with me, it’s definitely a journey! And thank you so much, I hope you are as well!
Im good thank you, your doing great you know…be kind to yourself and keep allowing yourself time to feel all those feels 
There is a really big difference between isolation and solitude. And the only person you really have to connect with all the time is yourself. If you’re happy in your alone time and feel that it does you good, then that’s a better option than being around people just for the sake of it and ending up feeling miserable.
I get moody and cranky if I don’t have enough time with just myself and when life is really busy I schedule time to be alone: a walk on my own, or a nice bath, etc
What you are feeling and talking about is a common thing yes. At least if you are sober nothing related to your addiction will cause ongoing problems. You might reach out to some people who you are comfortable spending time around too see how interested they are in you. It might also require some difficult conversations and apologies for the past…
I would start to get connection by just listening to some sobriety podcasts, or better yet, some online meetings. That’s a very easy way to start connecting, and you don’t even have to participate. It gets better, but you have to break the isolation and put yourself out there, which thankfully can be done in baby steps online.
I was told I had BPD too, because when doctors can’t give you a serious diagnosis that is the one they put everyone else in the category of.
It’s alcoholism.
Everyone in these rooms is the same. We all have fears, and lies we tell ourselves about our worth, etc. etc. etc.
Some of us just have more/deeper stuff to work though, is all.
Recovery is about relationships. My sponsor was the first person I ever had a healthy one with. But I had to find a sponsor who was really an expression of God.
Alcoholism is a mental illness of sorts. Thank God I got away from all the psych labels - they push us down a rabbit hole. They were never the truth about who I am. I just needed to work thorough a lot of stuff.
keep the hope, and seek to the ends of the earth for a really good sponsor. God will provide.
We tend to be in a lot of self-pity and depression when we’re new. That’s just the nature of the disease. Now it’s time to find a Solution.
God bless you and keep you.
Thank you, I like your perspective. I’ve never thought to look at alcoholism as a mental health issue as well. I get stuck on labels and definitely need to focus on putting in the work. I’m hoping to find a sponsor soon 