Hrs 44-50, time stands still… or at least to a slow, tormenting, soul crushing crawl… checking my sober clock every 2 mins… I know this passes and I’ll be fine, but it’s still hell on Earth… Anyone currently or remember the hell that is opioid withdrawal? All I keep thinking is I deserve this… I took the pills, I didn’t have to, this is the consequence, quit acting like a bitch… I’ve done this, no less than 20 times in the last year… Slowly getting better and knowing what’s coming next, learning and hopefully growing… I know there’s an easy way out, but I know that way keeps me in the fog… Like a zombie… Without feelings, without meaning and without life… Just a husk of a human, showing up to family events, smiling on que, nodding along barely even present… I always compare vicodin addiction to the movie Click, when Adam Sandler is on auto pilot… That’s what it’s like… You want to be there, but you’re not… Just rambling to keep sane…my bad…
Keep fighting for your health my friend
It’s been almost 4 years and I remember it like it was yesterday. I never ever want to go thru the hell of oxycodone withdrawal again. Having that healthy fear is good for me.
I hear that’s even worse… Congrats on beating possibly one of the worst pains a human can feel… I’m officially into my 3rd day, 48 hrs+… hurting but making it…
Keep fighting! The good news is… you will never have to feel this bad ever again.
Its been quite a number of years since i was shooting up hydromorphone and i remember the withdrawl clearly. It was bruuuuutal to say the least. Remember ur goal and ur reason for quitting. U will never have to go thru this again if u stay clean. Never. I know that the addiction specialist gave me medication to help with a few of the withdrawals but it was still painful and verrry uncomfortable. Wishing u all the best
It is SOOOOO uncomfortable… thinking I might just try to pass out…