Hi,
I’m new here. Can anyone tell me how to start a journal here? I don’t know anything about this forum an I would like to learn.
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Welcome to TS Faithful Walker. This is a great place to find support. Take a good look around. Read some subjects. Here’s some helpful ones for new members:
Do you use the mobile app? It has a personal journal section. If you want to journal in a public thread you could use this one you just created yourself. A group of us posts daily in the check in thread. Lots of possibilities. Welcome again friend, and wishing you all success!
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Thank you @Mno. I appreciate your help. Anything else that I need to know? Your Story is that a journal?
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That’s a category you could start your own topic in, sharing your story. If you feel like it.
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Welcome! Good to have you here!
You can start your Journal right here and share what‘s on your mind.
There are a lot of different topics and threads. Read around and participate when you feel like it. I am looking forward to see you posting!
Would you rather like a personal, private journal or a public journal?
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I would like to write a public journal. That way I can at least have support in whatever decisions I make.
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Amazing, I love the idea! I think the „My Story“ area is pretty perfect for it. Just start a new thread there and keep us posted!
Let us know if you have any further questions. Looking forward to reading your journal 
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Hi everyone,
I may not know much about this forum but I think that this forum is just like Rewire Companion forum. Anyway this is my first time checking in to this forum. Day 1 is almost complete looking forward to day 2. I am a Christian but I deal mostly with self pleasure. This is difficult for me right at the moment.
In the past I dressed as a woman without even noticing it. OSDD can do that to me in my past. This was in my early and late 20’s. When I was at the age of 32 I started HypnoP*. Now I know what you are thinking “am I gay?” No I ain’t gay it’s just a condition that haunted me for so long.
Now that I’m 39 years old it has been at least 3 or 4 years since my last OSDD incident. 28 years addicted to M. Again in my early and late 20’s I relapsed at least 3 or 4 times a day. In my middle school and high school days I was just figuring out what M was about. So then also in my early 20’s I joined the Navy to try to run away from this addiction but it only made it worse. I almost committed suicide in the Navy and I was dishonorably discharged for this act after 5 months and 19 days in the Navy.
About the time after that I tried hanging myself to try to commit suicide. Unfortunately I wasn’t successful. Now I don’t try to harm myself anymore. As of now I did make 279 days but failed in February of this year. Then as of today in the early morning hours I have relapsed again. So today begins another journey to overcome what I consider self pleasure.
I am now attempting to use mindfulness meditation and Contemplative Prayer Meditation to overcome this self pleasure habit. In other words I have a compulsive habit that must be removed. Now I relapse at least every 30 days or so. This is my story I hope that it’s not triggering to everyone else.
So as of now I say goodbye to this self pleasure.
Sincerely,
@Faithful_Walker.7
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Welcome to this remarkable community! I’m so glad that you’re here.
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Unfortunately I wasn’t successful
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I am grieved to read that it’s still unfortunate for you. For me, it’s fortunate that God gave you another chance at life.
I am also addicted to PMO. Spend some time scrolling through my journal ICanAndWill’s Touchstone. I struggle with smoking, PMO, suicidal ideation, and even my sexuality.
The magic formula that’s working for me won’t be the same for you. But, what I can say is that the longer I’ve been on here, the easier it is to feel connected and loved. Genuinely loved for who you are in this moment.
So, please stay with us. Continue to be vulnerable.
We see you, we hear you, we challenge you, and we accept you!
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Day 1
Today is Easter and wish that the day 1 was day 100. I have to be patient and focus on what I have to do. I want to make sure that 100 days is within reach. I may not have it all figured out but I’m hopeful that God will provide a way. All is well today watching something to distract me at the moment. Something in the range of PG 13 of course. Looking forward to writing here again tomorrow. Thank you and God bless.
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Welcome to the forum!!! So glad u found us 
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Thank you @Butterflymoonwoman.
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The Rewiring Journal
A daily record of discipline, growth, and change
Day 2
Today’s Notification
Never lose hope. You never know what tomorrow may bring.
Today’s reminder reaches me in a place that’s been tested more times than I like to admit. This journey hasn’t been clean or easy. There have been moments where I questioned if I was really changing or just repeating cycles I thought I had already broken. The weight of past habits still lingers at times, trying to convince me that nothing is different. But this message pulls me back to truth—change doesn’t always show itself right away, and my story is still being written. So I ask myself honestly: am I going to let my past define me, or am I going to keep showing up until change becomes undeniable?
I may not see the full progress yet, but I know something is shifting within me. Every time I resist, every time I choose discipline over impulse, I am becoming someone stronger than I was before. Tomorrow isn’t something to fear—it’s something to fight for. It could bring clarity, strength, and a version of me that I’ve been working toward all along. So I hold the line today. I stay in the fight. And even if hope feels small, I refuse to let it go. The real question is—what will I choose when the moment comes again?
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Prayer for Deliverance and Strength
“Heavenly Father, I come before You seeking Your grace and mercy. I am tired of this fight and struggle, and I ask for deliverance from this addiction. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right and steadfast spirit within me. Lord, I repent for the sin of masturbation and porn, and I ask for forgiveness. Please give me the strength and willpower to overcome this temptation. Holy Spirit, help me to walk by the Spirit and not gratify the desires of the flesh. I surrender my body to You, Lord, for it is Your temple. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”
Spiritual Warfare Prayer Against Lust
“In the Mighty name of Jesus, I renounce all sexual sins I have been involved with, including masturbation and pornography. I come against every stronghold of lust and self-gratification. I command every spirit of sexual perversion tormenting my mind and body to come out in the name of Jesus. I declare that my body is a living sacrifice unto God. I break all ungodly soul ties and close the doors to the enemy. I thank You, Lord, for my freedom, in Jesus’ name, Amen.”
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The Rewiring Journal
A daily record of discipline, growth, and change
Day 3
Today’s Notification
Life will always try to make things difficult for you, but every time you overcome obstacles, you come out stronger.
Today’s reminder doesn’t try to comfort me—it tells me the truth. Life is not going to ease up just because I decided to change. If anything, the resistance feels stronger now. The urges, the thoughts, the internal battles—they show up at the worst times, testing whether I’m serious or just talking. Some days it feels like I’m pushing uphill with no clear sign of progress. But deep down, I know this is part of it. The difficulty isn’t there to break me—it’s there to reveal who I’m becoming. So I ask myself: when things get hard, will I fall back into what’s familiar, or will I rise into what I’ve been fighting to become?
Every obstacle I face is an opportunity to choose differently. Every moment of resistance is a chance to build strength I didn’t have before. It may not look like much from the outside, but these small decisions are shaping me in ways I can’t fully see yet. Strength isn’t built in comfort—it’s built in resistance. So I accept the difficulty. I stop expecting an easy road. And when the next challenge comes, I have to decide—will I give in, or will I stand my ground again?
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The Rewiring Journal
A daily record of discipline, growth, and change
Day 4
Today’s Notification
The best way to predict the future is to create it.
Today’s reminder challenges me in a different way. It’s no longer just about resisting what’s in front of me—it’s about taking responsibility for where I’m going. I can’t keep hoping that one day things will just “click” or that change will happen on its own. The future I want isn’t something I wait for—it’s something I build, choice by choice, habit by habit. So I ask myself: am I living today in a way that actually creates the man I say I want to become?
Consistency is where this becomes real. Not motivation, not emotion—consistency. Showing up on the days I feel strong, and especially on the days I don’t. The small decisions I make today are shaping tomorrow whether I realize it or not. Every time I stay disciplined, I’m casting a vote for a better future. And when the moment comes again, I have to face it with intention—will I act in alignment with who I’m becoming, or will I delay the future I say I want?
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The Rewiring Journal
A daily record of discipline, growth, and change
Day 5
Today’s Message
What you do today can improve all of your tomorrows.
Today’s message brings everything back to the present moment. Not yesterday, not some distant future—today. It reminds me that change isn’t something I step into all at once. It’s built in the small, quiet decisions I make when no one is watching. Every action I take today is shaping the direction of my life, whether I acknowledge it or not. So I ask myself: am I acting like the man I want to become, or am I still holding on to the habits of who I used to be?
This is where identity begins to take form. Not in words, but in repeated action. Every time I choose discipline, I’m no longer just “trying” to change—I am changing. I am becoming someone who has control, someone who doesn’t fold under pressure, someone who stands firm when it would be easier to give in. The more I show up the right way, the more that version of me becomes real. So today isn’t just another day—it’s a defining one. And when the moment comes again, I have to decide—am I reinforcing the old version of myself, or am I stepping fully into the new one?
Day 6
Today’s Message
You are never too old to set another goal or dream a new dream.
Today’s message reminds me that my story is not locked in. No matter how long I stayed in certain patterns, no matter how many times I fell into the same habits, I am not disqualified from becoming something greater. There were moments I felt like I had gone too far, repeated too much, or wasted too much time to truly change. But that way of thinking only keeps me stuck. So I ask myself: do I really believe I can become new, or am I still holding on to the idea that I’m bound to my past?
This is where ownership takes hold. I stop blaming the past. I stop waiting for the “right feeling.” I take full responsibility for my actions, my choices, and my direction. The fight begins to shift—less about constant resistance, and more about control. Control over my thoughts. Control over my decisions. Control over what I allow to shape me. I am no longer just trying to escape who I was—I am actively building who I choose to be. And when the moment comes again, the question is different now—will I move with intention, or will I give away the control I’ve been working to claim?
Day 7
Today’s Message
With a new day comes new strength and new thoughts.
Today’s message reminds me that I don’t have to carry yesterday into today. Whatever I faced, whatever I struggled with, whatever thoughts tried to take hold—I am given another opportunity to begin again with a clearer mind and renewed strength. Growth isn’t about being perfect every day; it’s about not staying stuck in who I was the day before. So I ask myself: will I step into this new day with intention, or will I let old patterns quietly follow me into it?
Something is different now. The fight isn’t as loud as it once was. The urges may still come, but they don’t feel as powerful when I don’t give them attention. Discipline is no longer something I force—it’s becoming something I live. A quiet confidence is forming, not based on emotion, but on repeated proof that I can choose differently. I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. I just need to stay consistent with who I’ve been becoming. And when the moment comes again, the question is simple—will I continue to walk in this strength, or will I forget what I’ve already built?