Totally hear you and welcome!! Sounds similar to me when I started on this path a decade ago. Lots and lots of starts and stops and little interest in AA…just never resonated for me…I support people finding what works for them, including AA…and checking out other options!
Being on here and reading threads helped me immensely. It was a solid place to turn for advice, to educate myself and to build support and community.
I also read quit lit like mad…highly recommend Quit Like A Woman and This Naked Mind.
I utilized mindfulness, guided meditations, yin yoga, running and working out and sleeping as much as humanly possible in my early days. I also indulged my sweet tooth. I focused on the day at hand or the hour or the minute. Just get thru that.
Coming on here was vital for me and knowing that anything could be a trigger…good day, bad day, sunshine, rain, exhausted, celebratory, day ends in Y.
Another thing that helped me was writing out the bad stuff from drinking…and what I gained by not drinking…which is a shit ton or self esteem, self confidence and self love…after decades of shame and guilt…it is hard not to crave those good feelings. 
Below is a post I put together years ago…lots of reading and suggestions in it…maybe some you will find helpful…
Today is a great day to be sober!!! 