I completed aa according to the big book. I did the steps and sponsored a few other people through the steps so technically that’s all I needed to do. People who attend aa regularly recommend attending afterwards. The social aspect of recovery is tricky for me sometimes. Even this app technically is social media but it comes in handy. I am sure I’ll go to some meetings here and there, and they do help, but having a home group, or even specifying a group of people as my “circle” is a challenge. Being alone can be dangerous in sobriety, but I am in a committed relationship right now. I guess long story short outside of a few posts on this site, I don’t have many outlets. When I was in active addiction/alcoholism, all of my personal relationships were very intense, nothing was ever casual about hanging out with me. We were all in or not, no matter what the nature of our relationship. Booze was my primary relationship and everything else helped nurture that. So now, with sobriety being my primary relationship, and ultimately the most important thing in my life, I feel like every other relationship is just a mechanism to protect my sobriety. All my interactions with people feel inauthentic. If this is simply “adulting” on a regular basis, using relationships with people as a means to protect a healthy lifestyle, then I guess I am satisfied. I hope this helps someone, I believe working the steps with a sponsor helped, I am not against aa, I just feel like it has propelled me into a different dynamic with people, for better or worse as long as I stay sober, happy, and free. 
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Wish you well on your journey .for me i joined a Home group and did the steps with my sponsor ,ive been sponsoring for a few years now and helping my fellow alkys on their journey still go meetings and speak at Prisons and hospital just giving back what i got , everyone is different keep us posted on your journey
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