Man, its been a hard 23 days sober but i am still going! Does not change the fact that everything is still crumbling around me. My partner broke her sobriety and weve been arguing since. Im tired of arguing about how much i work. Work is the only thing keeping me sane right now. I kicked the suboxone last week on my own call just because it feels like to me youre just trading one high for another!? I was triggered hard this week from her relapse and honestly i don’t know if its even healthy for us to be around each other anymore. 10 years… i want it to work out so bad but we just cant get along and weve tried taking breaks… that dont work because we cant stay away from each other. Im just so lost. Im exhausted.
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Don’t give up! Sometimes letting go is the best thing to do for your own sanity. Awesome job on 23 days! You got this!
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Keep it there my brother🤝
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That does sound exhausting for sure and stressful. Can you find healthy ways to release some of that stress and exhaustion? Venting here is definitely one way. Sometimes a walk outside or a physical activity is another. I know it may sound weird, but sometimes just sitting quietly and following our breath can help us feel a little more replenished. Guided meditations can help with that too. Idk, just some thoughts.
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You got to remember that things would still be crumbling if you used again, that wouldnt be changed by using infact probably would get worse. Im sorry your having such a hard time i feel for you…when i feel like that i tend toward writing a plan…list the things you can do something about and what u can do to go about solving them, the things you cant control find a way to live with, the act of writing helps you to focus and organise all the scrambled thoughts in your brain and get them onto paper to look at objectively, stops you feeling so overwhelmed…be a man with a plan lol
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