Today is the first day of journey I tried to embark on many times, but I always seem to find my way back to the bottle. I always find myself making stupid excuses “well one more time won’t hurt, it’s the long weekend”, but it always does. Another day gone to waste nursing my hangover. I don’t go out as much anymore, in fact I rarely drink with people. I’m a closet drinker who prefers to drink alone. I use to think I was the only person my age who does this, but once I started opening up to people I realized I wasn’t alone. I’m tired of trying to be sober alone. I think this can be very helpful for me. I have a lot of good things going on in my life, with a new career path that’s right in front of me. I have plenty to do to keep me busy these coming months. I want to be sober is because alcohol has always slowed me down in reaching my goals. I know I have so much more potential. I’m happier without it, I have been sober before and I truly believe life gets better when you are. I had a very hard year, with the passing of my grandfather and he is the main reason I want to get sober now. He did it and when he became clean his whole life changed for the better. I want to know that I can be strong like him. I want to make him proud.
What are you willing to do to get sober?
I haven’t thought about that too much yet, but I do need to. I’m willing stay out of situations where I know I’ll want to drink concerts, parties etc. and I’m willing to talk more about my addiction which I have never done.
That’s a great start! If you found yourself drinking at home alone, is there anything else you can do instead at those times? A good walk always helps me clear my head. I also find meditation helpful.
There’s a book called This Naked Mind which I read recently, might be of interest. It’s about reframing the way you look at alcohol, I know a lot of people here have read it.
There is SO much information and support on this forum, you’ve come to the right place 
You might like to have a look through this thread to help get you started:
Good luck. Half measures availed us nothing. Any time I only dipped a toe into sobriety I always kept a finger on the drink. Took me a couple failed field expirements before I was satisfied that I couldn’t use drugs or drink safely. Then I became willing to do whatever it takes to get sober.
Maybe a meeting might help you they worked for me todate get phone numbers and lift the phone before the drink , you need a good foundation when it comes to staying sober and meetings will give you that if you desire it wish you well
It looks like you might already know what was missing from your previous attempts. Perhaps a group based approach would be a good start fill in the isolation of your drinking and recovery efforts.
Looks like you are making a great new start, good luck!