Hi, i just joined the app. This is my day 1…for maybe the 50th or so time. The nunber of times i tell myself that im stoppong drinking is ridiculous. Im drinking wine on a night and i hate it. I dont even enjoy the wine drinking…i dont like the forst taste of it…but then the buzz starts to hit and i keep going and going until i feel properly drunk and i hate that feeling so then i desperately try to sober up and go to bed which of course leads to crappy sleep, and a crappy morning. And then repeat repeat repeat. I dont want my life to look like this anymore. I will do all the journalling and tru to use this app to help me.
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Welcome to the app, this forum, journalling and of course, most important, your sobriety! This place has been instrumental in helping me get sober and maintaining that sobriety as well over the last years. Hope it can be as helpful to you as it has been and still is to me. read, learn, share, support and be supported. The most important thing I learned here is I’m not alone. We’re inthis together and that sense of togetherness, of community, of not trying to solve life alone, might have been the biggest lesson I learned here and in sobriety. So welcome again and wishing you all success on your sober road!
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Welcome! Coming here is a first good step. Get active here, it will help.
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Congrats.
I had to come back many times before I can get some footing in recovery also. It is odd and I don’t know if it is useful or not but what helped me my first week was thinking of what I liked about my addiction and than thinking why did I need that pleasure fed, how else can it be fed, etc. I wish you the best and it shows how strong you are that you come back. I wish you the best!
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welcome! you can do this. i was you 11 months ago. after 13 years of heavy drinking and hundreds of quit attempts, i finally was done, and thanks to this community, it stuck. life is so much better, as you will soon find out!!
are you finished?? if you’re finished, confirm it. trust it. and allow this community to support you thru the most difficult part which is most commonly this part here, the very beginning.
go thru the forums, read and ask questions and reply and get involved - you will find that the connections you make here can help tremendously in the days and weeks to come, as you learn how to relate to your thoughts and feelings differently, and navigate the strange territory of your mind without this old poison you’ve been using to escape it. you can do this, and it just may be the absolute most rewarding thing you’ve ever done in your life!! 
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Thank you all for your kind and supportive words. Im already finding this app so helpful…I am also on another app and i joined an online zoom meeting yesterday which was good. And im listening to Annie Graces book whikst walking etc. It really is a lot of work the first while of sobriety isnt it?
I woke this morning feeling so much better than i did yesterday when i was wretching, had a headache and just felt terribly hungover and ashamed of myself.
I never have to experience that again.
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good work ,keep it in the day , when cravings arrive come on here and ask for advice and don’t pick up the first drink we’ve got you 
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I understand that totaly. Write down somewhere at a piece of paper how bad you fellt when having a hangover. There comes a time when you have more sober days when your mind starts to romanticize the drinking. We tend to “forget” how bad it was. At that point reading that piece of paper is going to help you remember and push trough.
At least it did for me 
Welcome here, you find a good place! 
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How are you doing today!