This is where I am

Life in Recovery
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I wish I could afford therapy. I wish I could turn back the time. I wish I could be positive and love myself.

I haven’t been discipline to clean my living space. my family and loved ones feel so far away.
I hate being alone with my thoughts so I come here
Sometimes fear of falling asleep because my dreams feel so real.

Accepting and forgiving yourself is the first step, I’m just not there yet.
I know to take it day by day. I know everything will be okay.
I just don’t feel like my family and loved ones can accept me because I can’t accept myself

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The Talking Sober thought for today may help.

The secret of change is to focus all of your energy not on fighting the old, but on building the new. - Sober Time’s message for November 21, 2023.

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Right there with you girl. I need therapy but it just isn’t feasible right now. I’m living with family at the moment and it can be humbling at times. I try to remind myself that all I can control is what happens next. I can’t rewrite the past, all I can do is move forward. What matters is that we have made the decision to be sober and be here :slight_smile: that’s a huge start and takes so much strength.

Solidarity. You are not alone :heart:

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Alice, you strike me as someone that has hit a low, but would normally have so much energy and positivity if your addiction didn’t drag you down so much :people_hugging:

You’re a beautiful lady, and I know there’s a beautiful soul in you too :heart:

When you’re hooked on one addiction or another, you can feel like an imposter in your own life. Believe in yourself, because you are loved xx :heart:

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Yes love yourself, its self care we need to give ourselves more of ,this is a fantastic app ,your not alone x

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Welcome Alice, I can tell you what helps me it to remember that how I’m feeling in the moment is only that a moment. It can and will be different in a hour, a day or week. Stay strong and breathe.

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Are you in Canada by chance? If so I know of a place that offers free counselling.

You’re doing the best you can and being here amongst us is awesome. Good job!

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I relate to everything you said. I know this app isn’t therapy, but sometimes it is nice to come on here and read some peoples stories, or talk about your own. I think it has been a start for me.

I have not tried this yet, but someone did tell me there are 24 hour AA groups that are online. I was thinking of giving that a shot at some point. Maybe that could help you as well.

Wishing you all the best and strength you need to feel good again :heart:

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You have to do this 4 U it is a frame of mind that you have to get to you have to believe in yourself you can do this dont give up. Be strong​:+1::ok_hand::muscle::checkered_flag:

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By which you already are accepting where you are at at the moment. It took me a lot of time and I think it’s still ongoing to accept who I am, to acknowledge the mistakes I made in the past and to accept that I will be continue making mistakes because I am human.

At first it was so overwhelming as everything had to change now. Yesterday. The most important step was to hit the pillow sober every night as as a first step it would prevent from getting up hungover and hating myself first thing in the moment. The ‘rest’ was and is still the beginning of the work as you can read here everywhere. For me this work consisted of dealing with upcoming emotions sober, reacting differently or not at all. And coming here and getting out what’s in my mind.

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