Im thinking of beers and how different ones can do different things
That’s heavy to think about huh
Like a carona
I know it won’t be 1
It’s because it’s been a bit of time
But I also can’t stop at 1
I’m having fun and im looking for ways to continue fun
I always thought when I’m having fun, I look for more fun. It’s just the way i am
Im in a good mood
But wow does carona sound good
Right now im at work
I haveno plan to drink but I’m fantasizing having a beer and everyone being happy withme still which wont happen
Hey man. It’s ok to have the thoughts. It’s ok to crave and wish. But, acknowledge the thought and meet it right head on with the other thought. That you also know: it won’t be like that. It won’t be one, it won’t be two, and before long, it’ll be chaos all over again. You won’t be happy, your girlfriend won’t be happy, your employer won’t be happy, your landlord won’t be happy. Need I go on?
It’s ok to have the thoughts. But at 100 days you also have all the other necessary thoughts to think. So think them. And be your own good friend and do the right thing.
Get yourself a nice dinner instead.
PS: have you ever written out what drinking felt like to you, towards the end? The day after, the hangover? How you felt about yourself? Might be a nice task tomorrow to spend an hr on and save that on your phone or post here, to come back to when you have thoughts like this.
Have you tried a meeting? They really bring me back to reality when having those moments.
There is a 24 hour zoom one you can just listen to with earphones if you can at work.
Zoom 2923712604 is the code.
It will never be how we imagine it to be, to have that drink.
Congratulations on your 100+ days that’s a nice amount of time you have there.
These feelings happen, whether we have 1 day or 100 or 1000.
We never have any number of days. We always only have one day: today.
It sounds “good” because there’s something missing for you. Your addict brain is talking to you, trying to pull you back, for some reason.
You gotta lean in to that feeling.
You feel that monkey brain running around trying to distract you? Fine. It’s a monkey in a zoo. You look at it. You notice it. But it’s in a cage, and you’re the one who’s free.
So you sit with that. This monkey’s all worked up. Why? In my experience, it’s usually because I need some rest, or some food, or some fun, or some fulfillment. (Other reasons can be you’re angry or lonely, but usually those are a little more obvious, like I’m angry and I want someone to listen to me, or I’m lonely and I want some company on a walk or something. Either way, you call someone.)
If you need rest, get rest.
If you need food, get food.
If you need fun, dig into what you wanna do. Woodcarving? Painting? Whittling? Guitar playing? Sculpting? Clayworking? There’s fun in those. There’s lots of other ways to get fun too.
If you need fulfillment, that means there’s something maybe missing from your life. Maybe a personal project, or maybe a professional one. Dig into yourself and take time to reflect.
You know it’s not about booze or drug, those are bullshit. So take some time and talk it out. Talk with us, or talk with your fiancée. If you’re gonna be married to her, you better be able to talk about things that are fun or fulfilling
We can’t stop at “1” because of our addiction truths. The beer is not the problem; the problem lies on how the beer effects our physiology. Remember the effects…
I made a great dinner yesterday for me and my feonce
We both walked to the grocery store and picked up things for chicken parmasaun, blue berry soda and ginger beer (that’s justginger ale but with more ginger )
I fell asleep at 11pm or 23:00 and woke up at 7am completely rested
I call these thoughts euphoric recall, it’s when our brain is lying to us. Yes it may have been fun and felt good in the beginning but look what it brought us. Play the tape forward, how will it end? Alcoholism will make us think many different things and the demon will always give you a version of only the good but its a lie, ignore the demon on your shoulder and listen to the angel instead. It maybe harder to hear them but they are right.
I have thoughts of alcohol often. But I KNOW it does me no good. The negatives far out weigh any joy it could possibly bring. So no, I wont drink. I do still wish I could but I am never tempted.
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