Hey guys…
I’ve been hiding in the dark for long enough and it’s time to be accountable.
I’m addicted to pornography and masturbation. Over the past few weeks, I’ve looked at porn and masturbated more times than I can count. I’ve made promise after promise only to relapse as soon as my wife leaves for work at 10:30 at night. It’s time to stop. I’m ready to start the path of recovery. I’ve started reading and following the twelve steps and I’m bringing to light what I’ve been doing.
This blog will be my daily blog. I don’t care who reads it or who replies, but I promise to be open and honest about what I’m doing. When I struggle, I’ll come here. When I feel close to breaking, I’ll come here. It’s time to change. It’s time to be sober.
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Respect to you for your honesty and self awareness that you need to make changes to your behaviour. I’m new here and starting my own journey but I and many othere here will be here to offer peer support when you need it.
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Just had an honest check in with my wife and told her what I’ve been doing. I love having a woman who doesn’t take my issues with PMO as a personal insult. She’s loving, she’s supportive, and she’s willing to listen and help me how she can. It’s good to be open and honest with her again.
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It sounds like you have taken the first step to recognize that your life has become unmanageable. I had to surrender before being able to move forward with my recovery. It has been a difficult and painful journey at times but it is so worth it. Being accountable helps.
One day at a time.
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So glad to see you back. I can most certainly understand the trigger of having such free time.
When the wife is away, this hubby’s apt to play.
I was missing you. You bounced back faster than me. After my first reset on TS, I was AWOL for 18 months, acting out almost every day. Not good.
So here’s to a new day. Today!
And thanks for sharing. Good share.
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I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost… I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes me a long time to get out.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
I walk down another street.
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Hey everyone,
I had a realization the other day. After watching a very inspiring TED talk on achieving your most ambitious goals, I realized that it’s not about swallowing a life full of sobriety all at once, it’s simply about making correct choices and minor adjustments along the way so that I will increase my odds for success. I’ve also been going through the 12 steps and feel more firm in my resolve than I’ve felt in a while. I’ve surrendered and feel ready to change my life for good. My timer is only at 4 days, but considering I’ve been stuck in a daily relapse, it’s taken me a while to get to 4 days.
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No one can be sober forever but we can all be sober right now. Keep making the next right decision!
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Take out only from your sentence. You’re not at only 4 days-4 is better than 0! Don’t dumb down your success. You’re headed in the right direction and I’m very proud for one to see you making moves there. Seems like you came to a good realization this morning 
one day at a time…I hope you have a wonderful Monday!
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