Unfortunately, I relapsed again after again 14 Days and together with my doctor I decided to spend 3-4 weeks in a clinic for dependencies. so that I can work more intensively on it. I’ve already done it for 9 months to not drink and I hope through this step … with subsequent further therapy … I will now be able to reach the last high exit and can handle it forever
there is a lot of nature there and the people there are very nice
… it is very difficult for me right now but it has to be and I think it will get better afterwards …
Forever is a long time maybe try to look at it like your staying clean for today it’s so much more manageable looked at like that as if it’s forever on a bad day that could really overwhelm you, congratulations on taken steps to better your life I an tell by the way you write your desperate to have another way.embrace your time in clinic it’s thought I know but the tools you can equire whilst there are priceless.
thanks for your answer Lilemm
with klean stay every day you absolutely hate. I just hope that I can now find the last bad trigger in my life so that I can fight it better day by day. I know that I can do it without.
i don’t know if i am expressing myself in an understandable way … the emotions are just like a river … sometimes calm … then deeply flowing and calm again.
well i do not regret the decision it will help and every day will get better … i believe in it … it feels good too, knowing that i am on the same deep day as 3 years ago … no there a lot has happened and even if I … logically don’t like it … it’s good
When I was in the Marines, we had a shooting related term called DOPE, which had nothing to do with drugs. It was an acronym for Data On Previous Engagements. It meant you recorded the settings on a weapon, so the rounds landed precisely where you intended.
If rounds weren’t impacting on the target, you changed settings until they were. This is called “making a DOPE change”. If this change was extreme, it was called “making a bold DOPE change”.
You have determined that your current DOPE is insufficient for you hitting the target, and are making a bold DOPE change.
I wish you well, and hope you will be able to share your journey with us!
aah cool swiss friends in payern. the world is just small
I am now here in the clinic … I have to spend 2 days in quarantine. but the talks and therapies are already starting I am ready and motivated.
I am thinking too much again whether I will get along with the other patients … but the fact is I am here for 4 weeks to work and not to find friends, should it turn out I have nothing against it … but sometimes it is … at least for me … difficult to make contact in such places. with the staff it is very easy for me … they are very nice and already we get along very well and laugh together
Wow what a great view!
Good luck in rehab, that must be hard work in a strange environment. I think when you are there for a few days you will feel better and find people you have a “click” with. You are all there for the same reason! That gives a bond.
yes the environment is incredible, that helps too. my therapist is very nice and the rest of the staff. the people with me are nice too. But my goal is to work intensively on me in these weeks and less to make contact. I am very positive.
I’m ok enough. I found it hard to found sparkles in my day during Corona
And milestones are tricky days for me and I’m heading the 600 days milestone, maybe that doesn’t help too.
Beautiful country! 
I am ready and motivated.
