When I lived at my parent’s house (up to last july), I would steal their red boxed wine without them knowing. I would lie about my bedtime and how my life was going generally.
Since july, I have moved into an apartment with my boyfriend. I stole him some rhum, beer and whisky in the past 2 weeks while he was asleep downstairs. I never thought I could be a stealer… The thing is I know if I buy myself alcohol I will drink it without stoping, so I force myself to not buy any. But then, I steal… I am so disapointed with myself. Am I a horrible person? My boyfriend and my parents trust me. Not only do I lie all the time, I steal alcohol from them. I hate this. And after all of this I still have the audacity to try and convince and manipulate them into thinking my drinking is justified and to let me drink. I sicken myself.
Are you going to meetings?
No, you’re addicted to a sustance or the way the that substance makes you feel.
Open up to them and be honest with your issues. Addiction thrives in secrecy. You may be scared thinking of you tell them you have a problem you can’t go back to drinking… that’s the point though.
Best wishes to you Isabelle.
No, I only get support here.
I was used to describing alcohol addiction not by how much one drank, but by how much one lied, cheated and stole to support their drinking.
Addiction/alcoholism makes us do things that we would generally never do sober. Its the addiction that is causing u to steal. In the problem, i too used to do things that honestly are not like me at all to do! Ur not a bad person, just like im not a bad person. We shouldnt label ourselves as that. But we have made some wrong decisions bcuz of addiction. Alot of us have. If stealing and drinking and manipulating and lying bother u, its time to do something about it. U will feel soooo much bettwr about urself, when u can go to sleep sober and with a clear mind.
12 step meetings are great!!! I used to attend in person ones but there are also online 12 step meetings (which i have alsp attended). The Intherooms app has various mtgs and various times. Maybe that would be option? We get out of recovery, what qe put into it. Its important to work at recovery daily as we only havr a daily reprieve from our addictions.
I encourage you to check out intherooms.com
there are many different types of recovery meetings on there! You don’t have to share you can listen until you find the group that you connect with the most! Please check it out! You’re not alone!
No, but you are sick, like we all are when we’re in active addiction.
When I finally got to the place where I wanted to stop drinking and stay stopped, I had to do some things that I would not do before then. Like stop driving without a license, like going to AA and doing what they suggested, like being 100% honest with my drug/alcohol counselor.
I did not reveal hurtful actions (like admitting stealing) until I was well along in my recovery program and had the balance I needed to admit such things and not use the subsequent shame and embarrassment as an excuse to go back to drinking.
I also used Antabuse and some rigid accountability to help me separate physically from alcohol. Coming here daily maybe can provide you with some of that accountability.
Blessings on your house 
no matter where you are on your journey.
Don’t hate on yourself, it will only make it worse! I have found that being honest helps me to not do the things I don’t want to do.
I apologize all, particularly to the original poster, @Isabelle1 . This is a zombie thread from months ago that has stirred up some interest.