I’ve been struggling with the choice to go back to NA or not. I did a couple of zoom NA meetings over the past couple of days but I still don’t know whether it sits right for me. I’ve been doing this whole clean/sober thing on my own for a couple of years or so now and I’ve felt proud of myself for doing it that way. I have my concerns about predators and seeing old user’s in the room. Sometimes I’m good but mostly I’m depressed and suicidal. I don’t know if it’s just my mental health playing up. Any thoughts would be much appreciated.
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Right now if you’re sober and happy it’s a personal choice but I’ve got a friend who keeps relapsing and tells me he doesn’t like online meetings. We live in a town where there is one meeting face to face a week.
I tell him he says he wants sobriety and can sit in an online meeting 24 hours a day but he doesn’t like it. He chooses the alternative, drink, drugs, gambling, sex and he’s never been so miserable.
The moral of the story - NA, AA, CA etc, take it or leave it but if the alternative is mentally, emotionally and physically destroying your world Take It every day.
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Have you sought professional help for your mental health?
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Yes I have.
My heart’s kind of telling me no. I have had bad experiences in the rooms before and I don’t want the same things to happen again. So I guess that gives me my answer. Perhaps I’ll try smart recovery instead.
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