It does make a difference that you stay sober today, to bring your children home sober, to greet your husband sober. You can do this with help, you are worth it, you are stronger than you think.
The thing about @Ray_M_C_Laren 's suggestion is that it grows your sobriety, rather than merely distracting yourself from the alcohol or shifting the focus into your husband’s behavior that you cannot control. One thing I did early on was to read chapter 1 in the AA book “Twelve Steps And Twelve Traditions” every day, then to write on whatever struck me from it for a couple of pages. It’s available free online at Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions Book | Alcoholics Anonymous.
Here’s some great threads for newly sober folks as well. Blessings on your house as you begin your journey.
as you begin your journey.