How are you doing since you posted this? I can totally hear ur nervousness about today. And i truly do understand ur situation. Day 3 was “my hard day”, where I almost always relapsed. But try to just focus on today being just another day. Try ur best to not put that emphasis on it of it being the 4th day bcuz that in itself can cause distress and create a heightened emotional state (which cn increase the urge to drink). Stay super close to this forum. Do things recovery focused. Maybe attend an online meeting? And like others have mentioned, it might be a good idea to speak to ur husband about having beer in the fridge when ur still early in recovery. It just creates a slipper slope for u 
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I no think you’re doing great! Honesty really is the best way to start your sober journey. Would it be possible to put hubbies beers in a fridge in the shed/garage/ our building instead, if they have to be in ready? Just a suggestion…. If they are out of the normal day to day fridge they won’t temp you as much 
, I wish you well. Please let us know how your talk goes, I’m sure your husband will be there to support you. 
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You can do it! Day 4 is the “magic number” (I used to tell myself)…everyone would tell me “just get to Day 4”.
It f’kin sucks, as you know…but you can get through it, you can. Just think of getting to Day 5 and it will get easier, it won’t be “easy”, but easier.
I agree with others, you need to get the beers out of the fridge; Have him keep them in the garage or somewhere else - just not right in front of you.
Keep posting on this forum, it can help to vent.
Get to Day 5! Then you can say “man Day 4 sucked, but its over”…you can do it!
Shame is what made it so hard to accept my problem with alcohol that I developed over the years. And to get this realization somehow away from me I made jokes about it. Here and there. I was in good company. But I was so damn lonely inside. I was surrounded by people and always felt lonely. I made jokes about myself. It was dead serious. With lots of help and being honest to the people I trust it was possible to get out of this.
I wish you all the best.
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