Wellā¦ I have almost hit one week clean. Itās bittersweet because it is yet another milestone I feel as though I constantly reach. 
I realize thatās not the best outlook. I am working on regaining that positive mindset I had for awhile there. Itās easier said than done however, and the highs and lows are just a part of being human anyway. 
I am most certainly grateful to have made it this far. 
As well as simply be able to wake up another day.
I am in the middle of another āpeople detoxā - which is not particularly easy for me.
When I begin to get depressed, or am recently clean, my happiness starts to be reliant on others, I know this isnāt healthy so I am trying to nip it in the bud as soon as I possibly can. 
Not to mention the people that I was hanging out with were not the best company regardless. I made the mistake of thinking that I could hang around people who are in active addiction. This is never a good idea, but me being me I had to learn the hard way.
Not sure fully where I was going with thisā¦ I think I just needed to express my feelings tbh. 