That’s a tough spot to be in Naomi. I am sorry it’s so hard for you now. Family members can be tough to face at times.
Can you take a walk, get out of the house for a bit? Or maybe listen to some recovery podcasts:
Resources for our recovery
One of my fave things to listen to when Im going through pain is one of the talks by Melli O’Brien:
https://insighttimer.com/melliobrien/guided-meditations/self-compassion-meditation-2
Try to find a space today where you have some calm. Take it one minute at a time. Keep checking in here Naomi. You’re a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self.