My 9 year old grandson was in a head on collision this weekend. I had just begun this journey on the 18th and by the 20th i needed to be numb. I arrived at the hospital rushing out of work not saying anything to find out he was already in surgery. Hours that felt like days went by to be told his surgery went well, but he had little to no brain activity. I lost it, i tried my hardest to fight the urge and was unsuccessful. We had our precious Angel here with us until sunday afternoon. I used the first day this happened sober one day and after we said goodbye to him i didnt want to feel. Now im laying in bed unable to sleep from guilt and the saddness i have. I have to be able to hold it together to help my son and daughter in law through the worse time of their lives. My heart aches for my grandson as well as it wanting to take his parents pain away. I have to stay sober because i want to and they need me now to be. I love you mijo, always in Nanas heart
So sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine going through something that difficult. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers 
I am so sorry to hear this. I could not imagine how you are feeling right now. Prayers for you and your family.
Prayers to you and your family 
be kind and forgiving to yourself as you are healing. The community is here for you, no matter what
Sorry for your loss. Sending you strength and love.
I’m so sorry for this horrible loss. We are all here with you.
Sending you peace and love. No one should bury a child. Heartbreaking. You’ll be a better, stronger version of yourself with no vice.
Allow the grief to flood in and taper out. Hold your family close. 
I have no words to even describe how sorry I am for you and how sad this is. All that I can tell you is that whatever you numb yourself from now will be waiting when it wears off. Stay sober for yourself and grieve. Hugs to you.
So sorry, its heartbreaking 
Im sorry for your loss. Sending strength and love.
Update: thank you all for your support it means so much to me even though i dont know any of you personaly knowing others can be kind warms my heart. Today in another journey of grief anger has joined in the waves of saddness. However today we finally received good news. The bastard responsable for this tragedy has been currently charged with DUI and is awaiting further charges we know he is being guarded in the hospital and when released he will be taken into custody. We will see that justice is served for our precious angel. It gives me more ambition to stay straight and see this sobriety journey through. My heart will ache endlessly but you are all right, i need to remain strong and face this through because the pain i feel will never go anywhere unless i grieve as necessary. I cant stay numb to emotions i have to learn to handle them and express them aproprietly ( sorry cant spell) to anyone who took the time to read my little update i appreciate you and hope you are doing well on your journey. If i can have the worse pain in life of losing a grandchild and although nervous still and wiery of if i can continue this hurtful journey sober you can face your emotions, or trauma too. I believe in you all. Have a wonderful night
Your words, resignated in me all day today to stay strong thank you.
The awful, awful that you never expected happened… leaving you without your precious grandson and with hurt, pain and suffering. I am so, so, so sorry.
You have said what is best for you and your family in the quoted text.
Let your sobriety be in honor of your grandson and the child and memories you cherish.
This community is here for you as you one day at a time do not drink and also go through this tremendous loss and grief.
There are no words to explain how very sorry I am for the loss of your precious grandson @Andi23
Sending prayers to you and your family. We’re here for you!
I have you and your family in my prayers during this difficult time
Sending you lots of hugs
I’m sorry for your loss 
I will pray for you all 
rest well little one
Oh @Andi23 I am so sorry for your loss. I will be holding you and your family in my thoughts
I think shock is wearing off and this horrific time that seems endless, is hitting me. Im trying my hardest to be strong. And so far ive been to out of it to feel this pain in my heart. I notice im so tired i want to curl up and just sleep and let the world around disapear. I have to remain somewhat available to my family especially my kids. I find driving myself with the littles in my car gives me anxiety, I have a fear of the world around me right now. How can someone as innocent as him to be taken by a selfish person. I cant sleep and i cant stop looking up any information people have put about this to find any information of what exactly happened being we have to wait until we can get a report. Im angry of the whole situation and want and need to know exactly what and why this happened. My heart is in a million pieces and im gonna keep pushing with tears in my eyes for my family sake. Just needed to let these emotions out. Thanks for the vent